in loving memory

this candle burns for you

December 18, 1983
to
February 21, 1998


This is a memorial to a very special boy, our son Christopher.
He was a lovely fairheaded little boy with a smile that could knock you sideways. He loved everybody and everybody loved him. He was always happy, never sad unless he wasn't well. He loved his mum and dad, and his brothers and sisters. There names are as follows: Jason, Karen, Julie, Justin, Jonathan, Ricky,and lastly James who was the youngest. Chris used to suffer with bad legs the same as little James. Chris used to look after him and rub his legs to make them feel better. He knew what it felt like. He was a special boy, he would help anyone if he could. I hope he is happy with jesus because I know we miss him so bad it hurts all the time. Chris went out on the 20th of February 1998 to the park with his friend Roberto and his brother Ricky. That will be a day I will never forget. I told them they had to be back for 12-30am as dad would be home from work. They said okay mum, they were good boys I knew that. Well about 12-35pm there was a knock on my door. Thier dad had only just got in from work five mins before the knock on the door. Anyway I went to the door it was two police officers, they told me my ten year old had been in a very bad car accident. I said that was impossible as I didn't have a ten year old.  I said a twelve year old and a fourteen year old,but I said anyway they are all together with their friend. He said I dont know I was just told to come and tell you and to pick you up and take you to the hospital. I told terry who said he would wait for the other two children to come home. I went with them, when I got there, a nurse said to me I could see my son in a minute, but she also said that she couldn't tell me for sure if the little boy in that room was mine or not but that he was very very poorly. I was shaken that much, I waited till she came to get me, she opened the door, I spotted the clothes on the floor then looked at the bed. I started crying and said no it isn't the younger one it was chris. I remember thinking I can't be back in the accident and emergency again and seeing all this. You see back in 1996 my elder son had an accident, he had fallen from a block of flats, and had laid there for three hours before someone found him. I got the call early morning, anyway he was in the very same room Chris was in now, my elder son recieved major head injuries and had to be flown over to southampton for an emergency operation. He came through it, but it left him with a few disabilities, but back to Chris. I couldn't stop crying. I phoned Terry up and told him it was chris and that there wasn't a lot of hope.  He brought the kids down with him took one look at Chris and went out the room. You see he couldn't face seeing Chris like that.  If you knew Chris you'd understand, you could do what you liked with him he didn't care.  He loved jokes, I remember a while before he died Terry taped him from top to toe in sellotape and said get out of that one. Well we were all laughing but he did it.  That's the sort of boy he was.   Well Chris was in hospital for two days on a life support machine. He had six pints of blood and four pints of saline, but the bleeding wouldn't stop. He was in a coma, I rember saying can't you send him away for an operation like they did for my older child and they said they had already sent a scan over but southampton said there was nothing they could do, it was only a matter of time. Well my little angel died at twenty to eight on the following morning, I am so lost without him the laughter has gone from my house it is all false.  We love you my little angel with the freckles. Be happy darling,
Love your broken-hearted mum,dad,and all your brothers and sisters.....

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This a poem that Chris wrote.  It is quite ironic really as you will see.
 
Turtle
 
The poor turtle running for his life
as a small silver beast, sharp and deadly
chases the poor innocent baby, can take no more.
and the beast digs through the hard shell
this poor turtle lying there in the road as
the giant picks him up and takes him to the
slaughter house.
 
This poor turtle hanging on this large trophy.
hanging there so everyone can see it but
they dont know what this poor turtle went through.
the pain.. as the giant boasts that he caught
this treasure
 
by christopher cauvain
age 14 years old

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