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13 May 2007
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03:54:26

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Hi my littlest man, sorry its been awhile since ive written. well today is ANOTHER sad day in my life. Mom I miss you soooo much. Mothers day is just like any other day for me. Im still waiting for it to get easier but I dont think its gonna happen.I try to make it a good day for me and jason but its pretty hard to hide my sadness. I think him and I might go the the street fair and walk around. I will be out to the cemetary.. i got you some flowers as usual and also a new cross that lights up. well i better get to bed so i can be rested to walk around. I miss you both so much. give each other huggss and kisses for me and remember mom I LOVE YOU GOODNIGHT!! and Happy Mothers Day

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Hi my littlest man, Just came in to say Happy Birthday to you MawMaw. As you know mom i brought dad out to the cemetery today and brought you balloons and of course flowers. It was very emotional for us both today we both cried together. We miss you so much. Theres not a day that goes by that i dont think about you and justin. especially when at least a couple times a week someone tells me how much i look like u. I tell them yep everytime i look in the mirror i see her!! well i gotta get to bed i have to work tomorrow so i will write again soon. I love and miss you both soooo much. Love you goodnight xoxo

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04 Mar 2007
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04 Mar 2007
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15:44:29

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Hi my littlest man, sorry its been so long for me to write but theres been alot going on here. As you know Crystals husband Charlie has come to be with you and your mawmaw. I know in my heart he will help her take good care of you till i am there to do it myself. Charlie was a WONDERFUL daddy so i know he will just love you so much. I whispered to Charlie as he lied in the hospital bed to please give you and your mawmaw a big hug and kiss and tell you both how much I love and miss you. I dont know if he understood what I was saying but he did look at me and blink his eyes twice. mommie has to go for now but i will write again soon. You all take good care of each other and please look down on crystal and the kids and help them get through this. I love and miss you ALL so much. ( love you goodnight mom) love Mommie xoxo

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04 Jun 2006
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03:29:32

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hi my littlest angel. well here i am on another sad day of my life. this is the day 5 yrs ago that your mawmaw came to be with you. theres not a day goes by that i dont think of you both.Mom how i miss you so! its been 5 years now but to me it seems like forever since ive seen you and heard "love you goodnight". i might not hear it from you but i still say it to you everynight. I hope you liked the songs i was singing for you tonite. i know you heard them. Jason was down in his bedroom and he came up and said man mom you sound really good. guess that was your way of telling me you heard me. well gonna try to get some sleep tonite. didnt do to well last night guess i just have alot on my mind. I will be out to see you in the morning and bring you your flowers that i promised you. You and Justin take care of each other untill i am there to take care of you both myself. I love you both always and forever and i send my huggss and kisses and oh mom by the way "LOVE YOU GOODNIGHT"

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14 May 2006
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Hi my little man its me mommie, sorry its been awhile again but that dosent mean i dont think of you everyday of my life. well today is another sad day for me. I dont have you here to share my mothers day with me and i also dont have my mom here with me either. I try to put on a happy face for your big brother but its just so hard sometimes. these are the days that i sit and wonder what it would be like if i had you here. you would be 8 yrs old now and i wonder what you would look like and how your voice would sound. but at least i know i have you up there spending mothers day with your maw-maw. im sure shes loving you to pieces. the thing that keeps me going is knowing someday we will all be together again forever! make sure you give her lots of hugs and kisses cause she always loved that. Mom i want to wish you a happy mothers day. just like i promised you i put your flowers on your grave for you. i havent missed a holiday yet. and as you know sometimes i just put them on just because. I miss you soooo very much mom. I think this holiday is the worst for me. i dont care to much for any holiday anymore but this one bothers me the most. i see so many children so disrespectful to there mothers and i just want to shake them and tell them how lucky they are to still have there moms in there life and how lucky they are that they can look them in the eyes and tell them how much they love them. today my heart hurts really bad. I just feel so alone sometimes. i know i have the family and i love them very much but its not the same as having you here with me. sometimes i NEED you so much to be here with me i cant hardly stand it. but somehow i get through it. thank God I have Rick here with me on this sad day cause he does try to comfort me. i wish you could have met him cause I know you would have loved him. You told me one time that i would someday find the man of my dreams, the man ive been looking, the one that would make me the happiest well he definitly is that man.sometimes we sit and i just go on and on about you and he sits there and smiles at me cause he knows i love talking about you. I am always telling him how wonderful you are and how good you were to me. He says to me well if she was anything like you than she had to be one wonderful lady. i hear all the time how much i look and act just like you. and of course i tell them wellll thats a GREAT compliment, cause mom you were the BEST and you will ALWAYS be my best friend!! well i gotta get to bed so i will be back here again soon. Justin you take care of your maw-maw and you give her hugs for me and make sure you tell her EVERYNIGHT! LOVE YOU GOODNIGHT!!! Love Mommie

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24 Feb 2006
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16 Jan 2006
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03:03:09

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15 Jan 2006
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06:07:35

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21:25:14

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Hi my littlest man. i know its been awhile and im sorry for that. Its just when i come in here it means i am sitting here thinking about you and your mawmaw.and missing you so very much. Not a day goes by that im not thinking about you both. Mom i miss you bad. some days i just dont know if i can take it. theres so many times i wish you were here so i had you to help me with my problems. i talk to you in my dreams but sometimes it just dosent help. we had a little scare with dad a little while ago as you know and of course i came to YOU and ask you to please let us have him. i know you miss him and i KNOW he misses you really bad but i just am not ready to give him up. I lost you to early in my life and i can not lose him. He is such a wonderful dad and i dont know what i would do without him. dad and i are going to A.C. with don and lorey on the 5th and 6th. i cant wait to go. I remember the times the 3 of us went down. we had sooo much fun together.I know its very hard for dad when we go there cause he misses you and i know when he looks at me he sees you. everytime i look in the mirror i see you. man im a beautiful woman!!! lol well i need to go make supper but i will write soon. you both take care of each other untill we can all be together again. I love and miss you both very much. oh and mom... I LOVE YOU GOODNIGHT!!!

Name:
cusin mary
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Date:
08 Apr 2005
Time:
13:10:36

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Hello Justin!!! I know its bwwn a while since i wrote but Im the only one with out a computer. We all miss you so very much, you and mawmaw too, well I have a handsome son now he will be turning 1 next month and im going to have another boy in 4 months. My family and i have moved back up here I was missing everyone so very much. And about Joe mawmaw I know you would of loved him... he really is a good man no matter what anyone else thinks, yes he did somethings wrong in the past but he is trying to make them better for him and our family. Right now he cant seem to find a job and he is saying if he cant find one he will be returning to florida and i dont know if ill be able to take that. i do love him so and he means the world to me so if you could pull some strings to help him out with a job it would be apprected. I love you both so much. I miss yall too... oh mawmaw last night joe said he thought you were here he even called out to you, i told him that you were always here and he could talk to you at anytime just like the rest of us.. and then while he tried to talk to you the phone rang it was aunt joan it was late and it scared him. It was so funny. And by the way could you help aunt joan see that joe is trying, heck he moved all this way to get away from things everone knows that but they might not know that he also moved far away from 3 children to be with this family. and that he really is a good man just messed up some but hes trying to make yhings right again. thank you. I LOVE YOU BOTH... LOVE YA GOODNIGHT

Name:
peg mckinley
Email:
spiderplayer12@aol.com
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Date:
30 Jan 2005
Time:
06:55:12

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god bess you all may heaven take care of your little angel in his arms

Name:
pap
Email:
btridinger@aol.com
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Date:
23 Jan 2005
Time:
17:05:25

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I can't beleive you would be 7 yrs. old now. I was just sitting here thinking what a good time you and mama are having. i know that someday i will be joining you and her and i'll be able to take your one hand while you mama and me go for walks.I am so looking foward to it. I love you grandson.

Name:
mommie
Email:
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Date:
25 Nov 2004
Time:
05:59:43

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Hi my littlest man, its been a very long time since ive been in here and i am sorry for that.Its just when i come in here it brings back alot of sadness in my life. not only losing you but losing your mawmaw too. I miss you both so much i cant hardly stand it. Theres not a day goes by that i dont think about you both.Its so hard to believe that in less than 2 months would have been your 7th birthday. They tell me that its suppose to get easier with time but im still waiting for that time to get here. Sometimes i look at your big brother and i wonder how you 2 would have been together. He loves playing with the little kids and they all just love him so. i know you guys would have been best friends. ya know i try to put on a good front for the family and for your brother but to me the holidays dont mean much anymore. i miss your mawmaw so much. everytime i look in the mirror i see her in me more and more and it just makes me miss her even more. She was the one that made the holidays so much fun. to me its just another day anymore. well i better get to bed cause tomorrows thanksgiving and i am going to your uncle dons for dinner. give your mawmaw a big kiss for me and tell her that her baby says love you goodnight. love and miss you both always, mommie

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude02@aol.com
URL:
Date:
04 Oct 2004
Time:
10:07:34

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Good Morning my little man it is 6:00 a.m.Just thought i would say hi the last 2 days have been just great for me.The friend i told you about has come to see me.Mom you would really like her.I know you and i have talked about her.Well she is only here for a short time but we are having a great time.Well mom you know i love you and justin very much Please watch over her when she leaves and keep her safe.LOVE TO BOTH and HUGS.XOXOXOXOXO

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude02@aol.com
URL:
Date:
27 Aug 2004
Time:
03:42:26

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Hi my little man i know its been to long since anyone wrote to you but we all think about you everyday.You and i talk every nite before i go to sleep along with your mawmaw.At least we can do that.Not much going on here just take one day at a time.Well its almost midnite and i am getting tired.So i better close this for now talk to you in a few min.LOVE TO BOTH NITE

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude02@aol.com
URL:
Date:
05 Jun 2004
Time:
03:25:06

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Hi my little man its been awhile i am sorry about that. i told you your cousin crystal had her baby in feb. another boy.Since then there has been a girl in april and another boy in may.Mom jenny had a girl and her name is emily rose, mary has had a boy and his name is joseph thomas keith.We have not seen him yet but from his pictures he is so cute.Well mom it has been 3 yrs.today the 4th that you were taken from us.We miss you so much.Mom now you have 6 great granddaughters and 3 great grandsons.Little man you would have so many cousins to play with besides your big brother.At least you would have been the oldest boy than your cousins.Well you both take care of each other and give each other a big kiss and hug from me.Love to both

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude02@aol.com
URL:
Date:
14 Mar 2004
Time:
03:21:48

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Hello my little man I am so sorry its been awhile since i wrote to you.Things in my life are a little busy.At least we talk before i go to bed you and me and your mawmaw.I think of both of you everyday and miss the two of you very much.Not much happening just take one day at a time.Mom i know it was you who made it possible for us to be able to let dad come home for christmas and i want to thank you for that and so do the kids.They were all here just like they were for you.Of coarse you know crystal and charlie had their baby another boy named after dad and john.Robert lewis and they call him robbie he is so cute looks just like the other two.My little man now you have another cousin and soon there will be another one.Soon there will be 5 boys and 5 girls in the family as cousin's,nephews,grandkids and great grandkids.One day we will all be together.Justin and mom we love you both so much.XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO Nite to both of you

Name:
MOMMIE
Email:
URL:
Date:
17 Jan 2004
Time:
03:56:58

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WELL MY LITTLE MAN I CANT BELIEVE ITS BEEN 6 YRS SINCE I HELD YOU IN MY ARMS. SEEMS LIKE ONLY YESTERDAY I WAS PRAYING FOR YOU TO OPEN YOUR EYES AND LOOK AT ME. THERES NOT A DAY THAT GOES BY THAT I DONT THINK ABOUT YOU AND WISH SO BAD THAT YOU WERE HERE WITH ME AND YOUR BIG BROTHER. I KNOW HE MISSES YOU BAD TOO. PEOPLE TELL ME I NEED TO GO ON WITH MY LIFE AND NOT HARP ON YOUR DEATH BUT THOSE PEOPLE DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT I GO THRU EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE NOT HAVING YOU HERE. EVERY LITTLE BOY I SEE THAT IS AROUND YOUR AGE I JUST WANNA TAKE AND GIVE THEM HUGS. I WANT TO TELL THERE PARENTS PLEASE SHOW THEM HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM CAUSE YOU JUST DONT KNOW WHEN THE TIME WILL COME THAT YOU CANT. I HOPE YOU HAD A GOOD BIRTHDAY WITH YOUR MAW MAW. I KNOW SHE IS JUST SPOILING YOU ROTTEN. JUST LIKE SHE DID JASON WHEN SHE WAS HERE WITH US. WELL MOMMIES GOTTA WORK IN THE MORNING SO I BETTER GET TO BED. GIVE MAWMAW BIG HUGS AND KISSES FROM ME AND TELL HER I SAID LOVE YOU GOODNIGHT. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU BOTH SO MUCH. TALK TO YOU SOON MY LITTLEST MAN. LOVE, MOMMIE

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude02
URL:
Date:
15 Jan 2004
Time:
02:16:38

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Ok little man no i didn't forget your birthday is the 15 after i sent you a note i notice the date on my computer is wrong.It said i wrote the 15th but it really was the 14th sorry about that.I will be out to see you tomorrow which is the 15th the big day.LOVE YOU so much.Take care nite cya tomorrow

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude02
URL:
Date:
15 Jan 2004
Time:
02:11:14

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Well little man tomorrow is your birthday so i thought i would write now and wish you a happy birthday.Just in case i don't get a chance to get on the computer tomorrow.You will be 6 yrs old the time sure went by fast.Seems like only yesturday you were born.Hope you have a good birthday with your mammaw but wish the two of you where here with us.One day my little man we will all be together again.Till then the two of you watch over us and take care of each other.We all love the two of you very much and miss you terribly.xoxoxoxo

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude02
URL:
Date:
02 Jan 2004
Time:
17:26:23

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Hello my little man well christmas has come and gone.It was hard to get through.They say it gets easier as time goes on but trust me it doesn't.We miss the two of you now as though it was the first.I will be going to take your decoration down one of these days.Well little man today is the 2nd 13 more days till your b-day.I can't believe you will be 6 yrs old already.It seems like only yesturday you were born.All your cousins were here for christmas i'm sure you all would have had a great time together.Mom all your grandchildren and great grandkids where here they are really getting big.They miss you very much and so do i.Dad really enjoyed having them here.He said he hated to see them go back home and so did i but its so quite here now just me and dad.Well i must go for now LOVE YOU BOTH VERY MUCH and MISS YOU EVEN MORE.XOXOXOXOXOXO

Name:
mommie
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Date:
25 Dec 2003
Time:
04:36:03

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Well here it is another christmas eve and im sitting here thinking about you both.went over to your paps tonite and opened gifts. we had a nice time but it will never be the same without you here mom. i sat and watched the kids open their gifts but had to walk out. kept thinking about you my littlest man and wondering how you would have been at chritmas time.i know you and your mawmaw are having a wonderful christmas together. your mawmaw just loved the holidays. especially christmas. well mommies not feeling to well so shes gonna go to bed and have sweet dreams of you and your mawmaw so happy together.i will write to you later but till then i will see you both in my dreams as always. goodnight my sweet littlest man and love you goodnight mom xoxoxox

Name:
mommie
Email:
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Date:
21 Dec 2003
Time:
04:33:22

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hi my littlest man, well another christmas without you is coming up soon. as you know this is a VERY hard time of the year for your mommie. first i have the holidays without you and your maw maw and then i have your birthday and the anniversary of your death in january. i cant believe how fast the years have gone. seems like only yesterday i was holding you in my arms and praying that you would open your little eyes. i cant believe you would have been 6 yrs old this january. theres not a day goes by that i dont think about you and your mawmaw. theres so many nights that i lay in bed and think of you and wonder how you and your big brother would have been together. i see him with all his little cousins and i just think how proud he would have been to have you as his brother. he just loves little ones so much. Justin and Mom i need you to do something for me. as you know dad is in the hospital right now and i need you to help him get thru this. mom i know u and i have had alot of talks especially the past 3 days and you know how much he is needed here. its hard enough not having my best friend here with me anymore so you know i wouldnt be able to handle having my other best friend taken from me. its so hard to go to the hospital and see the man that was ALWAYS the strong one being so scared. so i need you to please put in a good word for him and help to keep him here with us. like ive told you in our talks mom... you cant have him yet he is needed here with us.well i have to go for now but i will be back soon. i love you my sweet littlest man and mom i love you goodnight. love, your# 1 daughter :0) and your loving mommie

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude02@aol.com
URL:
Date:
07 Dec 2003
Time:
16:49:07

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Hello my little man, Been awhile since i wrote to you on computer but talk to you and your mamal everyday.Well it snowed here but then you already know that.Wish you could be here to play in the snow.As soon as i can your mommy and i are going to decorate for you and mamal like we did last year.We miss the both of you so much.Mom i am done decorating the house except for the manger scene.That is hard to do cause its your favorite.It always reminds me of you when i do it.Well another year has come and gone they go so fast.Ok i must go for now i will try not to take so long to write but we do talk everyday.I love the talks we have it makes the day go by a little easier.Take care of each other one day we will all be together again.Love to both of you xoxoxoxo

Name:
MOMMIE
Email:
URL:
Date:
20 Oct 2003
Time:
11:16:27

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Hi my sweet littlest man, im sorry i havent written in awhile.but you know i always talk to you in my dreams. ive had alot going on in my life right now.trying to work, take care of your big brother and now im looking for a house for us. oh how i wish you were here with us. i think about you every minuite of every day wondering what you would have looked like and what your little voice would have sounded like.i see your little cousin c.j. and i hear him say mommie and i wonder if thats how you would have sounded saying it to me.nobody knows the pain i have in my heart missing you and your mawmaw, i do a really good job hiding it. somedays i think of you and her and i just wanna hide in my room and not open the door. i miss you both so bad. thats why i dont come in here as often as i should cause when i do it just reminds me of how much i miss both of you then i just sit here and cry. i know everyone says your both in a better place where there is no pain or suffering but i guess im just selfish cause i want and need you both here with me.well 2 of your cousins are gonna be having babies in a couple of months. im so happy for them and i pray they are healthy happy babies. it will be hard for me again seeing them and knowing that i will never have the chance of having any more of my own. dont get me wrong i am soooo happy for them and i cant wait to see them but it will still be hard. just like when crystal had c.j. it was very hard for me. especially when i saw him and saw all his dark hair. it brought back alot of painful memories for me. it was strange i was so happy but yet so sad at the same time. i hope i get to go in and see her have her next baby too.well my littlest man mommie has to go but i will be back soon to talk to you. i love you with all my heart and soul always and forever and remember to give mawmaw a big hug and kiss for me and tell her her baby says love you goodnight. love mommie xoxo

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude02
URL:
Date:
27 Sep 2003
Time:
03:08:34

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Hello little man its been awhile since i wrote to you.I know we talk all the time but i thought i would write and say hello.I was going through the toy box that pap has here and there are a lot of trucks in there that i know you would have loved to play with just like your big brother did.Now your cousin c.j. plays with them.You will soon have two more cousins.Crystal and Mary both are having babies.Not me i'm done lol.You take care and one day we will all be together.Take care of your mam maw and both of you take care of bj he was a good dog and lived a long time now he is there with you and mam maw.Mom i really miss you and i know you are feeding bj your meatloaf as you always did lol.Well you's take care love to all.xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Name:
daddy
Email:
URL:
Date:
17 Sep 2003
Time:
01:14:14

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hi my boy thought i better write to you its been awhile things are finally getting back in shape i think of you and then go in a shell but now i can talk to you and feel good afterwards i love you and miss you very much but i know you are happy where you arei love you but i believe you have plenty of love where you are but remember your daddy loves you more well i have to go say hi to maw maw fore me good nite your daddy

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7@suscom.net
URL:
Date:
19 Aug 2003
Time:
18:58:11

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hi my big man have not wrote to you for awhile i didnt forget about but alot of changes were made around here but i love you and miss you very you must be getting big because your brother is he was with me this weekend we had a swell time he helped me wash the car he help me around the house we did things together it would have been nice if you could have been here to help us one day we can and i am looking forword to that day well i have to go i love and miss you very much tell your ma maw i said hi loveyou both daddy

Name:
Mary
Email:
URL:
Date:
01 Aug 2003
Time:
18:26:27

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Hello there cuzz! lol I know its been a while since I have written you but I have been kind of busy down here. As you may know your mother and brothe are coming to visit me here in Florida... keep a close eye on them on there road trip. And with this restaurant i came down here for it isnt working out all to well. But something good came out of me moving back down here, I met a man... he is a good hearted man, i know maw-maw would of liked him he is a church going man, even has me going back to church this sunday. His name is Joey... he says he knows we are men to bo together because of "Mary and Joseph" :) Maw-maw I love you and miss you so very much... i think of you all the time,most of all when i hear the song holes in the floor of heaven --- that country song. I miss you both so very much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanted to see if you could look out for Krystals little girl she was born yesterday and she also died yesterday i dont know what happened to her but please look out for her and show her around cause she is part family. but im going to go for now, have to do some laundry. I love you both and miss you both dearly.

Name:
Cousin Jenny
Email:
BettyBoop162130
URL:
Date:
30 Jun 2003
Time:
08:23:16

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Hey there Justin. I know it has been along time since i wrote to you, but it hasn't been that long since i talked to you. I am a little better at talking to you then writing to you. And plus I don't have to spell when I talk. lol So, I just want to write to you and let you know that I LOVE YOU & MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH. Also, can you tell maw-maw that I LOVE HER & MISS HER SOOOOO MUCH! Your brothers birthday is on Monday. He is going to be the big 10. He his getting so tall and smart. Don't no if that is good or bad. lol. He is a very great kid. You 2 would have had so much fun together. But I think you both would have driven your mom crazy! lol. With all the late night laughing and carring on. All the crazy stories you would tell on each other. You know all things that brothers do to drive parents crazy. I also know that not only are you a GREAT brother but you are a GREAT cousin. Justin you are SO LOVED AND MISSED by so many people. I try so hard to imagen what you would look like now. I think you would have your dad's good looks, your brothers eyes and hair and your mother wonder smile, laughter, spirt on life, and her wonder persanality, and hoping you would have her spelling wisdom. lol. That is how I think you would have looked liked but we will all find out one day. I think that god took you from all of us cuz you looked so much like a purffect angel when you were born that he wanted you up there to greet us all when we come back home. That is the only thing I can think of. You have already welcomed maw-maw & aunt betty home. All I know is you have your work cut out for you. Cuz we have such a BIG family. lol But I know you will be there for everyone of us. Just like I know maw-maw will be there right by your side to let you know who is who cuz she is the best person to do that. She always kept us up on who was who here. She knows EVERYONE!!!! And I am not kidding on that one. lol She remembers everyone and everything. That is 1 of the best things about her. She never forgets. lol Well, baby cusion it's getting late. So, i will say LUV YA & MISS YA!! KISS AND HUG MAW-MAW FOR ME REALY BIG AND HARD!!!!!!! Talk to you soon and write to you again later. Bye!!

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude02@aol.com
URL:
Date:
28 Jun 2003
Time:
17:14:45

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Hello my little man,I know you and your mammal are doing good.Today your mommy is having a birthday party for your big brother he is 10 yrs old.He is getting to be such a big boy and so tall.I can remember when he was just a little thing.We wish you and mammal could be here for the party actually you are you are looking down on us.Mom crystal is having another baby her due date is end of feb. or begining of march.It would be so great if she would have it march 11 dad said so we are hopeing.Well i have to get ready to go i will talk again later.I love you both very much and miss yous also.lovexoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
URL:
Date:
20 Jun 2003
Time:
20:36:09

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hi my little man just a few lines to let you know i miss you very much and love you i sorry i didnt write sooner but things arent going to good for me these past months but now i can put them behind me i have lost so i might as well get on with life i new i couldnt win but you got to try now i have to find a way to forget but i have help now so it should not be as hard i wish i have you here by my side your brother is a big help for me keeping my life together when i go to bed at night you are the last thing i think of and how much i miss you and love you well iguess i will have to close for now tell you grandma i love and miss her also bye for now LOVE YOU BOTH

Name:
CAROLYN
Email:
cmaude02@aol.com
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Date:
05 Jun 2003
Time:
01:59:40

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Mom i am sorry i must of had a senior moment.the 4th of june you have been gone from us 2 yrs. not 3.I was thinking of 3 christmas's you have not been here.I'm glad we had a talk today wasnt the chicken good.Love ya mom xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo.See justin even aunt carolyn is getting old can't remember stuff.Have had a lot on my mind lately love ya little man xoxoxoxoxoxo

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude02@aol.com
URL:
Date:
04 Jun 2003
Time:
03:34:24

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Hey little man, Thought i would drop a few lines to the two of you.Things are starting to get a little better here.Your big brother will soon be out of school for the summer.Wish you could be here i know we would all have a great time this summer.We all think of you all the time we love you and miss you lots.Well mom tomorrow the 4th at 8:00a.m.3yrs. ago is the day i got the phone call that you were gone and went to a better place no more suffering and no more pain.Mom we all miss you so much and love you.You are always with us in our hearts and on our minds.LOVE TO BOTH OF YOU XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX O

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
URL:
Date:
01 Jun 2003
Time:
21:47:19

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hi my little man been a while since i talk to you but does not mean i forgot you i love you and miss you very much but i have alot on my mine right now and you are the only one i can talk to its been hard on me these last 5 month i dont think i can forget them its a little like you i dont have you but i miss you and love you but i miss giving you a big and a kiss that is what i miss but i have to get these in my dreams and i do.i guess i will have to close for now i been taking pills all day for my cold and starting to get sleepy so i will say i love you and miss you daddy

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude02
URL:
Date:
28 May 2003
Time:
03:42:38

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hey little man,today was my birthday wish you were here.your mommy had a little party for me.We had cake and a good time.Tomorrow is your daddy's.Hope he has a good one also.We don't get to see or talk to each other any more since things have happened between your mommy and daddy why i don't know i didn't do anything.But things change.Hope you and mawmaw are takeing good care of each other.I will talk to you again soon if not in here i will come to see you again.I love you both and miss yous more.XOXOXOXOXOXO

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude02
URL:
Date:
10 May 2003
Time:
17:34:28

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hi my little man how are you doing i sure do miss you.and wish you were here with us one day my little man we will all be together.There are a lot of things going on here some good some not so good but i know you can see that.Maybe you could help us down here figure out what we are to do give us some kind of sign.well my little man you take care i will write again soon i love and miss you alot.Hi mom well another mothers day without you.I hope you have a nice one i think i will hibernate on that day.I will spend it out there with you.Ilove you mom and miss you oh so very very much everyday i wish you were here.I may not be able to see you in person but i see you in everything i do or try to do you are always with me.Ok i will write again soon and i'll come see you tomorrow love you mom love to both of yous,xxxxoooo

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
URL:
Date:
03 May 2003
Time:
22:38:46

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hi my big mani am sorry for not writing sooner but i was trying to get my life together but i love you and miss you so very much i know you will understand its been hard these couple months but i think i am over the worsted of it now it is hard to forget but i think i made it just wish you were here things might have been a little easier i just wish you and jason would have had a good time together well i have to go remember i love you an miss you very much love and kisses daddy

Name:
mommie
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Date:
26 Apr 2003
Time:
00:07:44

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hi my sweet littlest man. just sitting here thinking about you as usual. alot going on in my life right now. actually im on a little vacation right now but of course i thought about u and thought i would write to u and tell you how much i miss you.Not a day goes by that i dont think about you AND your mawmaw. I miss and love you both soooo much. well easter was very hard for me this year. first i didnt have u and your mawmaw and on top of that it was my first holiday without your big brother. i cried alot that day. but seems like i do alot of that lately.thats why i had to get away for a little while. well mommies gonna go for now. gonna take a nap. but i will be back soon. give your mawmaw a big hug and kiss from me and tell her her baby said LOVE YOU GOODNIGHT!! i love and miss you both soooo much! love, mommie xoxoxoxo

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude02@aol.com
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Date:
16 Apr 2003
Time:
03:05:52

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Hi my little man how have you been.Wish you were here its almost easter you could help paint eggs.I beleive you would have loved it you could get messy and not get in trouble.Miss you everyday and love ya more.Your big brother is getting so tall he is growing so fast.I can remember when he was 4yrs old and i told him about his little brother.He was so little but he understood that god wanted to make his little brother one of his special angels.Now you and mawmaw are his angels watching over all of us.I will come see both you and your mawmaw this week.You take real good care of your mawmaw and my mom.By now you know she is a great person who loved everyone she came in contact with and i know spoiles you rotten.Well my little man i will talk to you again soon love you nite.Hi mom thanks for listening and talking to me the other sunday when i came to see you.I really needed someone to talk to I have joan but your mother is someone special.Love you mom and miss you a lot.NITE till we talk again

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
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Date:
11 Apr 2003
Time:
04:01:38

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hi my big boy i thought i would write to tell you how much i love you and miss you thing are getting better around here i wish you were here to share with me the life i have found thought i lost everything but i think i can settle for what i got maybe by talking it out with you might have help i had nobody to share my loss with but you so i thank you very much for listening to me i love you so much well i have to go to bed but i will talk to you soon i love you good nite

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
URL:
Date:
01 Apr 2003
Time:
22:07:39

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how are you my boy i thought i write you and tell you how much i love you and miss you we have a mess down here but we are clearing it up but i wish things could go back to the way it was but i guess i will have to forget that but its not wrong with wishing i am always wishing you could be here i just wish i could reach out hug you i miss you so much love daddy

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
URL:
Date:
01 Apr 2003
Time:
22:07:30

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how are you my boy i thought i write you and tell you how much i love you and miss you we have a mess down here but we are clearing it up but i wish things could go back to the way it was but i guess i will have to forget that but its not wrong with wishing i am always wishing you could be here i just wish i could reach out hug you i miss you so much love daddy

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
URL:
Date:
30 Mar 2003
Time:
08:05:49

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hi my big man hope you had a nice day i miss you so much i just cant tell put into words you meam so much to me i just wish you were here so i could give you you a big kiss and abig hug your brother is getting so big he does not say much but he misses you also i am getting tired so i better go to bed but dont think your mom dont love she does but she has a lot on her mind so give her some time well good nite and i love you daddy

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
URL:
Date:
30 Mar 2003
Time:
08:05:34

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hi my big man hope you had a nice day i miss you so much i just cant tell put into words you meam so much to me i just wish you were here so i could give you you a big kiss and abig hug your brother is getting so big he does not say much but he misses you also i am getting tired so i better go to bed but dont think your mom dont love she does but she has a lot on her mind so give her some time well good nite and i love you daddy

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
URL:
Date:
30 Mar 2003
Time:
08:05:30

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hi my big man hope you had a nice day i miss you so much i just cant tell put into words you meam so much to me i just wish you were here so i could give you you a big kiss and abig hug your brother is getting so big he does not say much but he misses you also i am getting tired so i better go to bed but dont think your mom dont love she does but she has a lot on her mind so give her some time well good nite and i love you daddy

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
URL:
Date:
24 Mar 2003
Time:
23:09:37

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hi my boy how are things i guess i shook a few things up well so much for that i want to tell you how much i miss you and love you i think i found my life i am able to let go of the past but you are one part i will let go of i need you so much you are the only one i can talk to when i talk to you i feel like i am with you i feel your hands in mine it just feels so real i need this right now and your love gives me this that is why i love you so much and nobody can take this away from me you i can always count on well i have to go i love you son and will talk to you later daddy

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude02@aol.com
URL:
Date:
22 Mar 2003
Time:
19:28:52

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Hi my little man how have you been.I miss you so much and think about you all the time.I really enjoyed our visit the other day.Some people need this web site to talk to you which is all right but they use it to try and get to other people like saying we forgot about you but you and i know that is not true. We talk every nite in our dreams and at the place were you are at rest.I will be there more often now that then snow is gone cause i like to talk to you one one one not where everyone can see.Somethings are between me and you to know not for anyone else.We all talk about you all the time and wish you were here along with your mawmaw.Mom we had a birthday cake for you on the 11th you and storm have the same birthday remember we talked about her.Well my little man i miss you and love you and you to mom wish you were both here.I will come visit you both again tomorrow cya then.XXXXXXXXOOOOOOOOO

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
URL:
Date:
21 Mar 2003
Time:
11:45:40

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hi my big man got up early so i thought i would talk to you i hope you had a good night i had a short one i went to bed at 230 and got up 5;30 so you see i dont sleep much you are the one i think of first because you are all i have that is mine and no one can take you away the good man is keeping you for me i never used to cry but now there isnt a day goes by that i dont cry i think i got a hole in my heart from loseing you and it keeps getting biger every day with every thing going on herei dont know if is big enough for a hole as big as this so lets hope well i guess i will have to say I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH MISS YOU WITH ALL MY LOVE YOUR DADDY

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
URL:
Date:
20 Mar 2003
Time:
23:53:23

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hi son thought i would write to tell you how much i love and miss youi see you mother did not forget you are our son when the lord took you away from usi was very angry but they say he had a reason well maybe he did i just dont understand i guess i am not to have and love anything because when i think i have every thing in life i need he takes it away justin i wish i could change places with you but then i would not have you any way i need you more now than ever because you are the only one i can say i love you to that knows i mean it you are my son i will be with for ever ilove you your daddy for ever nite

Name:
mommie
Email:
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Date:
17 Mar 2003
Time:
17:19:54

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hi my littlest man, im really sorry i havent written but as you know i have so much going on right now in my life. it upsets me that your dad thinks i have forgotten about you but YOU know that is not true. i talk to you everyday. it took your dad a long time to even come into this site. i miss you so much. ya know there was a time 5 yrs ago that i wanted and needed so bad someone i could talk to about you i think thats what alot of my probs are today, never getting to really let out my hurt and sadness in your death. but i know now that i can only rely on myself. dont get me wrong my family is wonderful but unless you have lost a child you dont really understand all the pain and suffering a mother goes through. many times i cry myself to sleep missing you and wondering what our lives would be like if you were still here with us. the day you died i lost a piece of my heart then 3 yrs later i lose my mom and the other half of my heart went with her. so now im trying to find my heart all over again. i need you and your maw maw to help me. i have soo many un answered questions in my life and i need you to help me find the answers. i just wish my mom was here to help cause she always knew what to say. well mommie has to go for now my sweet little man but i promise i will write soon. (honest) till then give your mawmaw a big kiss from HER baby and tell her i said LOVE YOU GOODNIGHT i love you justin only you knows how much! love you ALWAYS and FOREVER, mommie

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
URL:
Date:
16 Mar 2003
Time:
15:48:50

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good morning son how was you night i just thought i would write to you i see everyone must have forgot about you but i never will because ilove you and miss you very much i still pray for you at night i hope you hear them i will have my thing together down here and be able to talk to every day i dont have much down here so you and jason is what keeps from loseing it all sometimes i just dont know what to do but i think about you and jason its keep me going i will write soon again love daddy

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
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Date:
11 Mar 2003
Time:
18:04:17

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hi my boy how are you today i miss you daddy is sick he dont feel good at all maybe it time i hope thing will be better because your daddy dont get sick much maybe your good word might have help i just want hold you and hug you so very muchto show you how much i love you and miss you could have my days a little brighter i have to go cant see to write any more i love you and miss you daddy

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
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Date:
09 Mar 2003
Time:
05:19:56

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hi there son i miss you very much how was your day mine started out good but didnt last it was a nice day it bike rideing weather i wish you were here to enjoy it ijust miss you so very much i know you and jason would have a good time together i wish we could be a family again but it will only happen in heaven but some day we will met again and i will give you the bigest hug you ever got well i will say i love you and have a good night but up ther all your nights are good ones i love you daddy

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
URL:
Date:
06 Mar 2003
Time:
03:52:13

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hi my big man how are you today me i geting along alright but all the life is out of me that is why i miss you so much if it wasnt for jason i dont know what i do i love both so much there a hole in my heartyou could drive a bus through it but when i get i think of you two and that pickes me up that is why i think of you and jason so much that is why i talk to you so much because i dont know if ican make it if i lose any more but time will tell but iwant to hold on to what i got i lost you and that part of my world now it look like i will lose the other part so what left i better say good nite before my emotions get to bad i love you and miss you very much good nite son love always daddy

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
URL:
Date:
04 Mar 2003
Time:
00:37:21

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hi my big man how was your day i miss you more every day i had a dream last night that you came to see us you were so cute you hug us so tight i said this was the first hug we got from youit was wonderful it felt so real i woke up crying i still think one day it will happen i will keep praying for that day i love you and miss you good night daddy

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
URL:
Date:
03 Mar 2003
Time:
03:15:33

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hi my big man i miss you very much tell your maw maw i said hi and i miss her to i wish you two were here to show me that there is a light at the end of the road i know you see it but i am not sure i had jason this weekend i had a great time but seems so lost and confused he try to enjoy himself but i think he puting on a good show ilove him so much it hurts me to see him like that well i guess i will close for now i love you both nite

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
URL:
Date:
01 Mar 2003
Time:
19:21:36

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hi my big boy how are you me not to good things are happening to fast for me you and jason is all i have left in this world i miss you so very much at night i think you just have to show me the way to come and be with you i need someone to hold on to and cry on there shoulder i hope we will be together soon well have to play with jason see you soon love daddy

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
URL:
Date:
25 Feb 2003
Time:
06:39:25

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hi my big boy i miss you i had your brother over for week end we had a good time i hate to send him home i love you both and when he goes i am lost but it better knowing he can come back but with you they took you and for me to see you i have to dream and pray hard but that does not fill the hurt in my heart but i will be coming soon so keep the gates open i love you say hi to maw maw for me i will have to go to bed soon it 1 30 so i will say good nite and think about me because i think about you all the time love your daddy

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
URL:
Date:
20 Feb 2003
Time:
21:32:29

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hi my big man just a few lines to let you know i love you and miss you very things are back to normal the little sunshine i had left now back to wishing i could be with you you and maw maw will haveto talk to the good man alittle harder because i want to come and live with both of you because there you have no problems an plenty of love so if you canput in a good word for me if any body can you to are the ones well i have to leave for now but i will talk to both soon think of me i love you nite and mom loveyou goodnite daddy

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
URL:
Date:
19 Feb 2003
Time:
03:55:09

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hi my big how are you and maw maw tonite sorry i havent wrote to in a few days but alot of things on my mine but i still had time to think about you both i love and miss you both and so does your mommie and jason you two are on my mine every day since you left my world been going down hill things have been out my reach but today the sun shone on me i just hope i can have a few more i just wish you two could be here i just missyou both i will close for now i love you both daddy good nite and mom love you good nite

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
URL:
Date:
15 Feb 2003
Time:
14:02:52

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hi there my little man i hope you had a nice valentines day i wiss i could have sent you and maw maw a card but mail dont go that far i miss you very much things arent to great down here life seems to be fadeing away life is a funny thing you think it great and you turn around it gone its good you dont have to go through all of this i hope you and your maw maw are having a good time just so she dont spoil you to much which i know she doeswell i have to go i love you both very much hope to see you both soon daddy

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
URL:
Date:
14 Feb 2003
Time:
11:06:25

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hi my big boy got up early so i could wish you grandma a happy valentines day i love you both very much and miss you dont have much to do so i sit and think of how it be if you both were still down here with us i can see you and jason side byside running and playingi think the world down here would be a little brighter well i have to go for now i love you and miss you very much i will talk to you tomorow daddy

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydl7
URL:
Date:
13 Feb 2003
Time:
15:26:34

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hi my big boyjust another sad and lonely day ihope you dont have these kind days because its hard i missed you very much i am writing to you more now than i did in 5 year but that didnt mean i did love you because i did but in prayer i could not express my love as i can writting to you i hope you will forgive me for this but here i can read this to you and it seem like you are on my lap reading it to i miss you so very much i would give up this world in a second to be with you there is nothing down here for me except your brother say hi to your grandma for me i miss her to have to watch what because we arent the only ones that can see this but if i pray to you only the people what counts can hear you mom just got out of the hospital yesterday she found out about the lumps in her bellie that she told you about that she never told us about i was really worried because i went through this before i am glad everthing tuned out alright ithink she is fine now well i guess i will close for now and remember one day mommie and daddy jason will be together with you as a family again love always daddy

Name:
daddy
Email:
snydj7
URL:
Date:
11 Feb 2003
Time:
12:09:18

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hi my big boy woke up early today have a lot on my mine imiss you very much and love you so much you and your grandmother will always listen your brother is getting so big and tall i dont think he understands why you had to leave us but he misses you we all miss you mommie went to the hospital yesterday for the lump in bellie i will call her later on but i guess you know this before we do so put in a good word for her so she will get threw this i would like to be at the hospital with her but i cant so you will have to take my place and get her well soon i still can pray no one can take that from me living down here on earth is very cruel so thats why i hope with your help i can come to live with you i know the can find a place for me you are my world i have now you and your brother i better go now I LOVE YOU and miss you so much love daddy

Name:
daddy
Email:
bobjoan96
URL:
Date:
10 Feb 2003
Time:
02:32:05

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hi my little man i miss you very much sorry i havenot wrote to you as much as i should but you know i love very much you know i do i wish i gould be with you am haveing a little right now but i will get though it so i will have to write to you more you know i talk to you at nite i could not under stand why the lord took you from us but i think i found out now im not sure it was right but i guess you are happy up there i hope you are i just wish more than anything that the good man would see his way clear for me to come and be with you i would miss your brother very much we spent a wonderful three day together i dont know how many more we will have but i know i can always talk to you in my prayers i just wish you could talk to me some nites i think i can hear you and your grandmother but it dont last long so would you say hi to your grandmother i miss her to i guess you now by now she is a wonderful person you know they say all leave us and i am sure of that no dault i my mine maybe thats why i am still here i bet you are a big boy now well i guess i will say i will see you soon if not see in my prayers good nite son ilove you

Name:
daddy
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Date:
18 Jan 2003
Time:
16:05:48

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dear Justin Iam sorry for not writing sooner but idid not want to admit to myself that you were gone i keep my feeling hidden but now i know i have to leave them out you know i love you and miss you very much no one could ever know they took you away before i could you this i guess everone think bad of me for not writing but i do not care but we still get together talk in prayer you know i love you Daddy

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude02
URL:
Date:
17 Jan 2003
Time:
01:53:34

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hello little man did you have a good birthday yesturday i know you did your mawmaw is spoiling you i know that.today was not a good day i was thing about you all day.i took your cousin crystal to get her nails done for her birthday.i always think of you and mom everyday all the time but more today i love you and miss you both very much.i know you and mawmaw were with your pap the other nite when he fell cause thank goodness he was alright just a bump i think yous caught him from really hurting himself.well got to go for now xxxxxxooooooo sweet dreams my little man and you to mom love ya both

Name:
mommie
Email:
URL:
Date:
15 Jan 2003
Time:
20:23:11

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hi and happy 5th birthday my littlest man. I miss you so very much. today me your daddy and your big brother brought flowers out to you.Today and tomorrow are a very sad time for me. this morning i woke up a little after 5am right about the time you were born. I want you to know i love you so much justin and i miss you too. i hope you have a happy birthday with your maw maw i know she is spoiling you rotten.Give her big kisses for me and tell her i miss her very very much. well mommies gotta go for now but i will be back soon. tell maw maw i LOVE HER GOODNIGHT!! love you both always and forever... mommie

Name:
Cousin Mary
Email:
URL:
Date:
06 Jan 2003
Time:
02:41:11

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Hey there buddy! I was thinking about you and maw maw today and on new years eve, i visited maw maw on new years eve i couldnt stay long it was cold and very dark outside that night i miss you two so very much!!! I know you and maw maw are watching over everyone and know what is going on, please watch out of everyone right now we all need you both some more then others but ya'll know what im talking about. Please help out al you can. But I need to go for now i have to get up really early tomorrow, for work just remember we all love you both and miss you both dearly!!! luv ya goodnight Mary Jo

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude02
URL:
Date:
05 Jan 2003
Time:
21:10:53

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Hello little man well another christmas has come and gone it is snowing here again but i guess you know that your big brother and cousin mary made a snowman in the back yard wish you could have been here to help you would have like to play in the snow making snowmen and throwing snowballs.well little man today is the 5th you have 10 more days till your 5th birthday.just think of all the parties and christmas,s we have to make up one day when we are altogether.you be a good boy which i know you are just like your big brother is take care of your mam maw give her lots of hugs and kisses from all of us well mom christmas has come and gone wish you were here your santa hat was on the tree again this year so you are really here with us you are always here right here in are hearts and always on our minds.last year joan got me my bras she was going to do it this year to but i told her i would get them its just not the same unless you do it nothing is the same any more. at least i have joan to talk to if i need but not even that is the same.I still talk to you though even if your not here you show me what to do or you let something happen to let me know you are still here for me I LOVE YOU MOM so much and miss you more well i guess ill close for now cause i cant see any more love you both and miss yous tooo xxxxooooxxxxoooo

Name:
mommie
Email:
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Date:
22 Dec 2002
Time:
08:24:22

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ohh my dear little man how i miss you so!! i dont know what im gonna do. i feel like im going out of my mind. this christmas i think is worse than last year. I just cant seem to get out of my depressed mood. and i cant get in the holiday spirit at all. Im trying my hardest to at least make it good for your big brother. but its really hard. As you know thurs we finally got u settled into your own grave.that day was soooo hard for me. I feel like i just lost you all over again. My heart is breaking so badley. Between not having you here and also not having your maw maw i feel like im losing it. Please help me make it through this holiday. Theres not a day goes by that i dont think of you and mom. Ive been crying myself to sleep so much the past couple of weeks that i dont know how i could have any more tears left. Its getting so hard trying not to show my sadness. I think people can see it in me cause im just not myself lately,before i was always ready to celebrate xmas. had everything bought and had everything decorated early. this year i decorated the tree just yesterday and i just got done my shopping today.I see all the little kids getting so anxious for santa to come and i cant help but wonder how you would have been. and what you would have wanted him to bring you this year.well mommies gotta try to sleep, its now 330am and here i am still awake and thinking of you and your maw maw. Mom i miss you so much, you always made my christmas's wonderful. And i thank you for that.You are the best mom in the world and i cherish EVERY moment i had with you. I just wish i had more! Please look after my little man for me and give him lots of hugs and kisses just like you always gave to me. Sleep well my dear son and my wonderful mom, I will see you both in my dreams as always. and mom dont forget I LOVE YOU GOODNIGHT!!! love, mommie and moms #1 daughter xoxo

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude02@aol.com
URL:
Date:
22 Dec 2002
Time:
04:11:38

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hello little man and mom i went and decorated for you today mom and played our christmas music.You always loved to decorate and listen to music so i tooked my what dad calls boombox with me while i decorated and we talked also thanks for listening you always were good for that other people came to visit their love ones and heard the music and just smiled.I miss you mom so much and miss you even more.i heard that you came for aunt betty to take her home with you grandma grandpa who i never met and uncle bill i know yous all are happy that yous are all together again but yous are greatly missed.Well little man we went on thurs and had you moved to your own spot.it was like the day we buried you all over again it was really hard that day and is still hard.tomorrow your mom and i will go and decorate for you wish you were here for christmas.but you are in heaven taking care of your mammal.give her a big kiss for me i love you both very much have a merry christmas. your head stone has your name on it now but what got to me on thurs. is when i looked at it it had your moms name on it to that really got to me mad it worst but one day we will all be together I LOVE YOU BOTH XXXXXXXXXOOOOOOOO

Name:
Mary Jo
Email:
URL:
Date:
22 Dec 2002
Time:
03:34:31

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Hey there you two! You both know whats comming up soon and everyone knows this time of year is hard on everyone. This year Im not doing so well, I used to love xmas with all of me but this year Im not really into it. I some what feel out of place I know it sounds silly cause I have family all around me, but thats is how i feel right now. I was with your mommy and daddy when they had to move you out of your daddys grave I really wanted to be there for your mom and dad, that was the first time I saw your daddy cry. I didnt like it. Your dad was joking arounding saying he was going to jump in his grave but i didnt see any humour in that... your parents are the greatest but i know you all ready know that. And your brother Jason is getting so big, it really means alot to me when i go over there to hang out... he seems like the little brother I never had. But about this xmas thing im going to try my hardest to get back into the xmas feeling but with out maw maw here it really isnt the same for me because no matter if i was here or in Florida she always made my xmas even if it was just a phone call i looked forward to it every year. And Im beating my self up that I didnt come up here for that last xmas I know I cant change what is in the past I just wish I could of said my goodbyes to my maw maw. I think about you both all the time I miss you both so very much. But I have to go for now Ill write back soon merry christmas to the both of you. Tell maw maw Im waving goodbye with my feet!!! lol Also I Love You Goodnight!!! Love your cousin and granddaughter, Mary Jo

Name:
mommie
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Date:
16 Dec 2002
Time:
03:56:35

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hi little man. well today your great aunt Betty came to be with you and your maw maw. Now all her suffering is over, i know you and her and maw maw will give each other lots of love.she will be really missed just like u 2! well i have a difficult time coming up soon.Not only is xmas gonna be hard but this thursday is the day i finally get you laid to rest, as you know when you died it happened so quickly and we put you in your daddys grave. well we finally are gonna put you in your own grave so you can rest in peace. Its gonna be a very sad day for me. having to see your little white casket once again. It was hard enough the first time.say a prayer for me so i can get thru that day ok. Well gonna try to get some sleep mommie will talk to you in her dreams as always. give your mawmaw and aunt betty a kiss for and tell maw maw i miss her VERY much and i said LUV HER GOODNIGHT. love mommie

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude02
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Date:
16 Dec 2002
Time:
00:18:18

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hello little man and mom today is dec 15th 10 more days till christmas wish you were both here.aunt betty has come to be with you and her family just like we all will be together some day.where there will be no more pain or suffering i just wish yous didnt have to go so soon i love and miss you both dad and i went to see aunt betty last weekend i believe and she wasnt doing to good but she talked to us while we were there.i didnt known she had the same color hair as you mom and grandma she looked so much like grandma.well i miss you both mom and justin and love ya more love ya i will right again soon love aunt crolyn

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude02
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Date:
15 Dec 2002
Time:
19:17:12

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hello little man and mom well today is dec.15th 10 more days till christmas.wish you were here.Aunt Betty is now with you mom and the rest of her family.Just like one day we will be with yous.dad and i went to see her i believe last weekend and she wasnt doing to good but she did talk to us.she looked just like grandma i didnt know she had the same color hair as you and grandma.well now you can all be together no more suffering no more pain but wish yous didnt have to go miss and love ya all so much love carolyn

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude02
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Date:
08 Dec 2002
Time:
05:33:33

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hello little man and mom well christmas is right around the corner.wish it was here and gone.as soon as the snow disappeares i will go decorate for both of yous i know it was one of your fav. holidays mom i guess joan and i will have to give the gifts out dad wont he said that was your job.i know you both will be with us on that day just like all the other ones.well mom i go to the doc. on the 12th to see if they found anything on the mri they took.i know you will be there with me.maybe they can find out why i keep getting pain in the back of my head.aunt betty isnt doing to good i hope she doesnt suffer to long im so glad you both didnt i just wish neither one of yous had to go so soon but god knows who the best angels are and he wanted you bothjust remember we love you both very much and miss you more.love to both xxxxxxxxxxxxooooooooooooooo aunt carolyn and mom your # 1 daughter lol

Name:
Cousin Jenny
Email:
BettyBoop162130@aol.com
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Date:
06 Dec 2002
Time:
07:41:12

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Hey there! Was just sitting around thinking about a lot of things and u came to mind. I'm sorry it has been so very long since I wrote to u but u know I think and talk to u and maw-maw all the time. Thanksgiving was good. I know that u 2 were on everyones mind that day more then any other day. Your mom did very good that day. Very proud of her. She kept her self very very busy. I think if she would have stop for just a moment she would have lost it. But she did great. She is a very strong person and I look up to her for that and many other reason. But, she did keep going outside to watch the kids play football and going out to smoke a lot. I know it is very hard for her around the Holiday's. It is for all of us. But mostly for her. She has lost 2 very important people in her live, just like us, but you were her baby and we can't share or really understand that feeling. We try but it just aint the same kind of love or feelings as a mother has for her child. I was at your cousin crystal house the other day and we were listening to christmas song's. The one song that played made me very sad. I tryed to not let it show but it did hurt me a lot inside. I always turn the station in the car when it comes on. I love the song but it just makes me so sad. It was the last Christmas song that we all sang at christmas for mawmaw before she left us. I know it might sound silly but it was the song "Grandmaw got run of by a reindeer". Your Aunt Carolyn has it on video tape. It was a very happy day. She loved it when we all stared to sign to her. The song is still great and I love it even more now. But it makes me sad to hear it to. Cuz it makes me realized that i would never get to see her face again when we sing to her. I guesse that sounds crazy in a way. But I am crazy. lol. Ask anyone in the family they will tell u that. Well, my littlest cousin, it is late and I have to get up early. I Love you and Miss you. Can you let our maw-maw know that I Love her and Miss her a lot. And I will talk 2 you and her later. Love and Miss You Both!!

Love Always, Cousin Jenny

Name:
mommie
Email:
URL:
Date:
29 Nov 2002
Time:
04:03:55

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hi little man well another thanksgiving has come and gone.im glad its over. i wasnt to bad today had alot of things going on around me, but now im sitting here by myself thinking about you and your mawmaw and missing you 2 VERY much. They say time heals all wounds, well im still waiting and hoping that that time soon comes but i cant imagine it ever will. i miss you and mom more everyday.The littlest things that i do makes me think of you mom. yesterday i was cleaning teshas foot with peroxide and automatically i started blowing on it, i can remember all the times you did that for me GOD i miss you sooo much.Sometimes i hurt so bad and i just want "my mom" here to make it all better. cause you ALWAYS did.Ya know some people say to me well you were spoiled or you were her favorite. well in my heart i know i was spoiled but i think it was because i was so close to you. You were and always will be my best friend. the one person i could always count on to be in my corner.And i miss that soooo much. I see the kids nowadays and the way they talk to there mothers, i just wanna take ahold of them and tell them, cherish the time you have with your parents cause you never know when that time with them is gonna end.I know i had 37 wonderful years with you but 50 yrs wouldnt have been enough. im just so thankful that i still have dad here (in my corner) i love him so much and i pray every day that he is with me for a long long time.well i gotta get to bed im very tired. remember i love you both with all my heart and someday i will see you both again. oh and mom LOVE YOU GOODNIGHT!!! mommie

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude02@aol.com
URL:
Date:
25 Nov 2002
Time:
02:56:55

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Hello little man its been a long time since i wrote im sorry.My life has been crazy.Im living with your pap trying to keep an eye on him.Well another thansgiving is just around the corner and christmas is to follow.It doesnt get any easier without you and mom here.We keep you both near us in our hearts.Thats all we can do right now but one day we will all be together.Icant wait till we are a family all together again.No more pain no more sorrow.I think it wont be long you will get to meet your great aunt betty who is your mammaws sister she is a real nice lady you will like her.Well little man take care of your mammaw for me tell her i miss and love her so much just as i do you too.All my love,Aunt Carolyn

Name:
MOMMIE
Email:
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Date:
09 Nov 2002
Time:
05:19:42

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HI MY LITTLEST MAN ITS ME MOMMIE. SORRY ITS BEEN SO LONG SINCE IVE WRITTEN. ITS NOT THAT I HAVENT BEEN THINKING OF YOU BECAUSE BELIEVE ME I AM.WELL NOTHING NEW IS HAPPENING HERE EXCEPT THAT I HAVENT BEEN FEELING TO GOOD LATELY. I HAVENT TOLD ANYONE CAUSE THEY WOULD JUST GET UPSET.I THINK THERES SOMETHING WRONG WITH MY BELLY. I HAVE A SPOT THAT IS VERY ROUND AND HARD, IVE HAD IT FOR QUITE AWHILE NOW. BUT LATELY ITS REALLY BEEN VERY SORE. PUT IN A GOOD WORD FOR ME THAT EVERYTHING WILL BE OK. THE NEXT TIME I GO TO THE DOC IM GONNA TELL HIM ABOUT IT BUT IM AFRAID TO.BEING SICK REALLY MAKES ME MISS MY MOM. SHE WAS ALWAYS THE ONE I WENT TO WHEN I WAS SICK. AND SHE ALWAYS HAD "THAT WAY" TO MAKE EVERYTHING FEEL BETTER.WELL THE HOLIDAYS ARE COMING UP AGAIN. I DONT REALLY LOOK FORWARD TO THEM ANYMORE. I KNOW THAT MIGHT SOUND SELFISH OF ME BUT I JUST CANT GET INTO THE SPIRIT ANYMORE.WELL I GOTTA GO FOR NOW ITS LATE AND I BETTER "TRY" TO GET SOME SLEEP. I WILL WRITE AGAIN SOON.GIVE YOUR MAWMAW A BIG KISS FOR ME AND TELL HER I SAID I LOVE HER GOODNIGHT AND I MISS HER TREMENDOUSLY

LOVE MOMMIE

Name:
mary
Email:
URL:
Date:
10 Aug 2002
Time:
01:13:18

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hey there bubby! just wanted to let you know that i was thinking about you tonight and thinking of my maw-maw give her BIG HUGS for me. i've been thinking alot about you two. missing you two. i just wanted to stop in and tell you that I Love and miss you two, it gets kind of hard, today i wasgoing through some of my pictures and found a bunch of old pictures of maw-maw it made me cry. im glad i took them i miss her so very much.im making a photo albam just for her. so when ever i start thinking of her i can just pick it up and see her. but i need to go for now hugs and kisses. love ya goodnite...( tell maw-maw im waving good nite with my feet to her shewill understand)

Name:
mommie
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Date:
04 Aug 2002
Time:
04:41:56

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well my little man the fight is finally over. today we finally got justice for you. The doc all along was saying she did nothing wrong in your death, but today she admitted it was partly her fault. All i wanted was for her to admit what she had taken from me. Now maybe you will rest in peace. My heart feels a little better knowing that this is all over.I know your up there with your mawmaw saying hey thats my mom and dad!! they did it!! Oh how i miss you both so very much. Mom i know you had a hand in this. You knew i was at my wits end wanting this to be over.I hope everyone is ok with the outcome of this. I just couldnt get up there in front of a jury and relive one of the worst days of my life it was hard enough the first time. I hope you can forgive me for not doing it. but as your mawmaw knows i am just like her.All i want is to let u rest in peace and i know that is where u are now. Well i have to get to bed so i will be back soon.You will always be on my mind and in my heart. give your mawmaw a big kiss for me and tell her LOVE YOU GOODNIGHT!! I love and miss you both so so very much.. love mommie xoxoxo

Name:
Mary
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Date:
17 Jul 2002
Time:
22:36:57

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hey little man. just wanted to write and tell u how much i think about you and maw maw. well i have great news, that im sure you know, make sure you and maw maw are with me on Dec. 11 2003 i will be getting married tothe Love of dreams and to know that you to are watching over me means the world to me, and now your mommy (my aunt) is going to let me wear her wedding dress makes me feel so good inside cause i know i dont really show it all to well but this last year i came to realize how much our family means to me, well i knew that b4 but i guess i took it for granted, but now i dont. i love everyone so much and i want everyone there when i start a new branch on our family tree. sorry i havent wrote in a long time its just really hard for me to come and visit because i cry, i cry cause i missed seeing you when you were born and i hate that and i cry cause i miss my maw maw so very much and i love you both sso very much but i have to go for now i cant read what im writing, i promise to come back sooner an talk to you some more o.k. i love you dearly your cousin Mary

Name:
Justin Gregg Snyder
Email:
justinsny1@cox.net
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Date:
29 Jun 2002
Time:
08:16:16

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hi justin...with love from your friend justin. i just wanted to write to let you know i'm thinking of you all.....grandma, little J....and daddy. you see this has also become my home...where I'm welcome...where I can come and talk to my loved ones....I feel the love for grandma, yours and mine....I lost mine this past Oct. 7th. I know justin....you're not only up there with your granny, but mine as well. And I am here down on earth with your mommy. You're also with my daddy. Man I miss him as well. I'm so gald you're there to help keep him company. There is something so special about love....those who understand .....understand....and that's what keeps us here on earth....the understanding and the memories..........to all of us who have loved ones in another dimension.......we're all loved....and they know they are loved……..may peace be with us all………

Name:
carolyn
Email:
cmaude00
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Date:
05 Jun 2002
Time:
02:29:33

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hello again there is something not right with my computer it is still the 4th and its 10:30.just wanted to let you know that love ya

Name:
carolyn
Email:
cmaude00
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Date:
05 Jun 2002
Time:
02:26:52

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hi mom i love you and miss you very much.i cant believe its been a year.It seems like only yesturday you were sitting on the porch watching me mow the grass.Remember the dandalions i picked and gave to you just like when i was little you would just look at me and laugh.Every time i mow dads lawn i remember and just smile to myself.i miss you mom i wish you were still here.One day we will all be together.Well little man how are you i bet you are keeping mammaw busy.give her a big kiss and hug for me.Mom give justin a big kiss and hug for me i love you both and miss you more and more everyday.I will write again soon love to both

Name:
mommie
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Date:
04 Jun 2002
Time:
05:29:09

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hello my little man! well today it is 1 year since your mamaw came to be with you.I miss her sooo very much. please give her lots of hugs and kisses for me.I leave it to you to tell her "LOVE YOU GOODNIGHT" every night just like i did. well gonna go try to get some sleep. i miss and love you and your mamaw very much. seems like the two of you have been gone forever. love you always and forever, mommie xoxo

Name:
mommie
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Date:
04 Jun 2002
Time:
05:25:53

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Name:
mommie
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Date:
16 Apr 2002
Time:
03:50:59

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hey my little man its me mommie. just getting ready to go to bed and of course you were on my mind so i thought i would just write u a little note.i miss u so much. today i went to the doc because i found a lump on my breast. so the doc is scheduling an appt. for me to have a mammogram. i have faith that u and your maw maw are up there thinking of me and saying some prayers for me that everything will be ok. say a prayer for your aunt carolyn to she is going in for a test on tues. please keep her safe to!!! and last but not least please oh please say some prayers for your pap. he is really having a hard time breathing latley. his emphyzemia is getting worse and i worry so much about him.as u know you have my mom up there with u and i am NOT gonna give up my dad. if something would happen to him i will never and i mean never be the same! he means the world to me. i already lost 1 of my best friends and i WILL NOT lose another one! so please you and maw maw pray for him so he stays with me at least 10 more years!!!!! well mommie has to go to bed so i will like always see u and mom in my dreams till we meet again. love you always and forever! and mom... LOVE YOU GOODNIGHT!!!

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude00
URL:
Date:
31 Mar 2002
Time:
16:32:32

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hello little man happy easter i guess you and mammaw are having an easter egg hunt.i hope you find a lot of easter eggs.give your mammaw a big kiss for me and tell her happy easter well we are going to your paps for dinner.your mommy and i are making dinner for everyone.so i guess i better go check the ham i will write again soon have a good day wish you were both here.love ya both xxxxxxxxxxxooooooooooooooooooooo

Name:
Justin Gregg Snyder
Email:
js@changeclothing.com
URL:
www.justinsnyder.com
Date:
25 Mar 2002
Time:
21:50:54

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I felt compelled to write because I came into this world in a somewhat related way…...... My mother had a son who only lived for seven months. His name is Christian, and he had spinal meningitis. The father of Christian was a MAJOR A-Hole, to the point that he wouldn’t have anything to do with Christian because of his illness, he was so ignorant he considered spinal meningitis some form of retardation. The father was terrible and extremely abusive. However, a very special Doctor came along who did his best to take care of Christian and to save his life. When this Doctor witnessed the love and affection pouring out of my mother’s soul, he fell in love. After Christian’s passing, my mother married that Doctor, and he in turn became my father. He adopted my sister Lorie, who was about 3 years older than Christian, and provided a wonderful life for us all. There isn’t a replacement for loosing our loved ones. But if one ever came close, I’d be the replacement. I’ve been a mamma’s boy since day one and feel thankful to be loved so much. My father also saved a neighborhood boy for 9 days who fell into his family’s pool. That day I met the best friend I have ever had, my friends name is Shawn, and his brother’s name was/is Justin. I became like family to that family, and now consider them to be part of my family. I guess they say where one door closes another opens. I came to this site looking for those who share my name. I’m glad I came and want you all to know my love goes out to you. I too have lost someone very dear to me. My father passed on of cancer in ’97. I took care of him and watched him pass in front of my eyes. The world is full of angels, up in the sky and down here. Just take a look around, you can see them. I know that Christian, Justin William Snyder, and Justin Kuthan are watching us, and having a good time up in Heaven. God bless anyone who has had to endure the pain of loosing a loved one. May peace be with you. Justin Gregg Snyder

Name:
Aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude00
URL:
Date:
11 Mar 2002
Time:
02:24:36

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Hello little man its been awhile.Ilove you and your mammaw.Today is her birthday Give her a kiss for me and tell her i said happy birthday.Your pap made her a birthday cake it was good.We love you both very much and miss yous more.Love,kisses and hugs to you both XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.Tell her i will come see her tomorrow and put her flowers back on

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude00
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Date:
11 Mar 2002
Time:
02:17:08

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hello little man its been awhile Tomorrow is your mammaws birthday.your pap made her a cake.It was good Give her a kiss for me and tell her i said happy birthday.Tomorrow i will go and take flowers to her.We love you both very much and miss yous more. love and kisses and hugs XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Name:
Kathy Ellis
Email:
ellisk06@earthlink.net
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Date:
06 Mar 2002
Time:
09:23:51

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Oh, Vision ... this is beautiful. My heart goes out to you. Love, Kathy

Name:
Denise Huber
Email:
dlhuber@duanemorris.com
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Date:
05 Mar 2002
Time:
14:36:31

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I don't know how you make it through the days. I cannot imagine all you have gone through. I am sitting here at work with tears in my eyes! This is a beautiful site. I'm sure it will bring you much happiness to know how much Justin is loved and missed by everyone. P.S. I wonder if my mom and your mom are up there talking about us?! Scary, isn't it? You know I'm here for you. Even though we don't talk everyday, you, and your family, are in my thoughts.

Name:
Linda foster
Email:
foster!@people pc.com
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Date:
31 Jan 2002
Time:
02:44:18

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Vision that was a beautiful pome you wrote for him. I'm sure you miss him everyday. My heart goes out to you.Wish I could make all your heartach go away. I can"tso I can only be here for you when ever you need me, Love Linda

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude00
URL:
Date:
19 Jan 2002
Time:
22:26:02

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hi little man how are you and your mammaw It is snowing here but then you already know that.Im waiting for it to stop so i can shovel my sidewalk than i will go shovel your paps.See if you were here you could help me.Thats not your fault.Its the hospital and nurses and doc.We would rather have you here making a snowman and throwing snow balls.We will be able to do all that one day it may not be snow balls though it will have to be cloud balls.Mom joan got her hair high lighted and wears it just like yours now she really looks like you.Mom when its time for me to come see you i am going to be creammated and my ashes are going to be put under that vase where we put flowers for you.That way we will be together.I love both you and justin very much and miss you even more.Sometimes mom i can hear you calling me.I do answer you but then i realize your not here.We can still talk to each other.I put a wreath on grandmas grave for Christmas.I left it on there.Aunt betty isnt doing to good.She may be coming to be with you soon.Ask God not to let her suffer.your father mother brother and your sister will all soon be together again.Just like all of us.I LOVE YOU MOM.

Name:
DONALD DARBY
Email:
darby@glade.net
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Date:
18 Jan 2002
Time:
03:52:07

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SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS ! I KNOW HOW HARD A LOSS CAN BE. GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY. DON

Name:
KathyDonovan
Email:
kkddmgr@aol.com
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Date:
17 Jan 2002
Time:
18:35:22

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Joan, This is a beautiful site and your poem brought me to tears. God Bless you, your family and little Jason . I know in my heart he is suggled up in The Lords arms and in his Grangma's also-Love Always, Kathy

Name:
crystal
Email:
crystalcrank@aol.com
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Date:
17 Jan 2002
Time:
03:46:22

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hey there little man i just wanted to say happy birthday i know it was yesterday and im sorry im late i hope you and mamaw had fun and ate a piece of cake for me today i might be a year older but im just to big for the whole cake thing so just as long as you eat a piece for me i miss you so much and love you too i wish so hard that you could be here with all of us but i know soon we all will be together just always remember that i love you always and i will do everything and anything i can to be there for your mom and dad and help in any way i can love you lots and miss you more love,crystal

Name:
Annonn (Denise)
Email:
Annonn@sisna.com
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Date:
16 Jan 2002
Time:
20:47:34

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What a beautiful place to remember someone. God bless you and Justin and your whole family.

Name:
mommy
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Date:
16 Jan 2002
Time:
04:42:58

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hello my little man and happy birthday! today is another sad day in your mommys life. i miss u so very much. I thought maybe it would get a little easier each year but it hasent. at least this year u get to spend your birthday with your mawmaw. im sure she is just loving u up.tomorrow i am coming to see u and bring u flowers. i will probably be alone cause your dad just cant come to the cemetary.i know he misses u very much.he just cant bring himself to come out there he says your not there your in his heart. which is true u are in all of our hearts. i catch him quite alot playing with c.j. and saying "daddys boy" it just breaks my heart everytime it happens just like i know it breaks his.well mommies gonna go for now cause its hard typing thru tears. take good care of your maw maw and give her a big kiss from me and tell her that her baby says love you goodnight! xoxoxo love always and forever mommy

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude00
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Date:
15 Jan 2002
Time:
23:49:11

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hello little man well its 6:45 pm the 15th of jan. today is your 4th birthday. Happy birthday our little angel.Wish you were here so we could have a party. We will have plenty of them when we are all together one day. You and your mammaw are having one now.We all love and miss the two of you very much.Take care of each other till one day we are together LOVE TO BOTH OF YOU Aunt Carolyn

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude00
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Date:
03 Jan 2002
Time:
00:46:31

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Hello little man today is jan.2nd 2002.Another yr. has passed.In 13 days it will be your 4th birthday already.It seems not to long ago you were born.Then you went to be in a better place god had other plans for you he needed you with him.We were all sad that day but god needed a angel.One day we will all be together again to celebrate all the birthdays and holidays we missed together.I love you justin very much and miss you to.Here are some kisses and hugs for you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxoooooooooooooooooooo love aunt carolyn

Name:
mary
Email:
bubblesmc20
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Date:
28 Dec 2001
Time:
09:24:12

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Hey little man. sorry i havent written lately, but as you know i dont have a computer but when i get around one i always come here to write you and maw-maw. Well xmas has come and gone, everyone was missing you and maw-maw. It was very hard. xmas eve when everyone was at maw-maws house i cried alot, i tired not to cry in front of pap, ur mommy or aunt carolyn i knew if they saw me it would make them all start crying too and i know maw-maw didnt want that to happen.But i did bring my new boyfriend up there (well if it wasnt for him i wouldnt of been able to come) and i know maw-maw would of liked him pap did. and he also made me go see maw-maws grave, i didnt think i could handle it but i think i was the best thing to do i do miss her so much i tried to keep a smile on paps face when i was there, i think i did a good job i know he was hurting alot but then again we all were.this is really hard for all of us we loved you both sssooo much.we still do.but i do hope you to had fun watching all of us xmas eve i felt you both there in my heart. well i need to go for now ill write you and maw-maw later k love ya goodnite mary

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude00
URL:
Date:
25 Dec 2001
Time:
05:08:21

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hi little man well another christmas eve has come and gone without you.We all miss and love you so much.Well mom this was our first Christmas eve without you.We missed you being there in person but you were there in our hearts and mind.Mom i got my bra i know you told them not to forget.It was hard doing christmas without you but i know you would have wanted us to go on with it for the kids and tom.Tom sat in your chair all nite long and wouldnt move.Dad got me to hand out presents he said he couldnt do it that was your job you always handed them out.What did you want tonite i guess you just wanted to let me know you were there.I already knew it because when we talked the other day and listened to the christmas music our song came on.I heard you singing it with me I'll be home for Christmas you can plan on me if only in my dreams.I love you mom.I'll eat some ham for you on christmas day.you and justin have a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.We all love you and miss you.Take care of each other till we are all together one day

Name:
mommie
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Date:
12 Dec 2001
Time:
04:35:43

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hi my little man well its a couple weeks till xmas and i miss u more and more each day.hope u like the decorations aunt carolyn and i put up for u.it was very hard putting them up. i wish u were here at home to see the decorations me your dad and your big brother put up. jason and i put the tree up and he looked at me and said wheres justins ornament that goes on first.it makes me sad to see his sad face when we talk about u. i know u and him would have been really close just like him and his cousin april. he just loves her to death.he tells me all the time that it isnt fair that he cant have a little brother,he;s to little to understand how sad that makes me cause i would love to try to have a little brother or sister for him but i cant.u were my only chance for that and they took that away from me.i finally got the courage to put your picture on my desk i have u in an angel frame cause u r my littlest angel.i have u right beside a pic of your mawmaw the 2 people i miss most in my life.well little man mommie has to go but i will be back soon.i miss you and mom sooo much sometimes i feel like i cant go on. give your mawmaw a kiss for me and tell her i said love u goodnight. thinking of u 2 always! love mommie

Name:
mommie
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Date:
12 Dec 2001
Time:
04:24:13

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Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude00
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Date:
10 Dec 2001
Time:
23:49:48

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Hello little man christmas is right around the corner.Its going to be harder this year because you and your mammaw both will not be here in person but yous will be here in our hearts.Do you like your decoration your mommy and i did for you.I also did some for your mammaw.She loved christmas it just wont be the same.I know she would want us to have christmas like we always did at her house.We have been doing it at the same place for 45 yrs.I put the decoration up at your paps house it was hard because my mom always helped me.It was really hard when i did the manger.Thats the one thing your mammaw really liked.I have been doing the manger scene every year except one for as long as i can remember.One year we were in maine and i didnt get home for chritmas.That was the only year.Your mommy put the manger scene up.When i went to see your mammaw to decorate i took my tape player and played xmas songs.I played her the one i always played.I would call her on the phone when it got close to christmas and would play it for her it was I'll be home for christmas.That way she knew i would be there.Well little man i have to go for now.I'll write again soon.I love you justin william.I love you mom and miss you more.It really was hard playing our song.We will still be together if only in our dreams.I LOVE YOU

Name:
mommie
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Date:
22 Nov 2001
Time:
05:41:47

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hi my little man, Mommies just sittin here like always thinkin of u and your mawmaw.well today is thanksgiving and im missing u 2 even more.this will be my first big holiday without her,its gonna be very strange and very hard not to have her here.She was always a big part of the holidays.the 19th was your mawmaw and paps anniversary please tell her that i kept my promise to her. about 1 or 2 months before she died i told her that if anything would happen to her that i would NEVER forget getting her flowers for every holiday.i did get them for her it was a very emotional thing for me especially having to take them to the cemetary. but i know she loved them.i never missed a holiday and i never will!oh i miss her so much somedays i feel like i just cant go on without her,i try to hide my pain and i think i do a pretty good job at it, i dont want anyone to know just how lost i am without her. i cry myself to sleep many nights thinking of her.im gonna try during the holidays to be strong but i dont know if i can.Mom always loved the holidays especially xmas.i use to love them to but without her here i really dont care about them.if it wouldnt be for your big brother i wouldnt even decorate or celebrate.but of course i do it for him.well little man this would have been our 3rd xmas together and i miss u more everyday.I have another new little man in my life his name is c.j. when i look at him he makes me smile just like i know u would have made me smile, I see him doing all sorts of new things like rolling over smiling and now he started reaching for us.he will never take your place in my heart but its wonderful to at least get to see him grow and learn new things.i think about how if u were here how u could be teaching him things.well my little angel mommy has to go for now like always i will see you in my dreams. give your mawmaw a kiss for me and dont forget to tell her her baby said "love you goodnight" love mommy

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude00
URL:
Date:
22 Nov 2001
Time:
03:37:25

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Hi little man.Sorry its been awhile.Well i got through my surgery but you know that i know that you and your grandmother were both watching over me Thanks.I want to wish you both a happy thanksgiving.I will eat some turkey for the both of you.I wish you were both here to eat your own turkey.I miss the two of you so much.We all do.One day we will all eat turkey again together.We will all do what we all used to do together.Well little man you take care of yourself and mamaw. Remember I love you and miss yous alot.Now if you dont mind i would like to talk to your mamaw.Mom it is going to be so hard this xmas.We have been celebrating together all my life.At least 45 yrs. in the same house. I believe i was 5 when we moved into fireside.45 yrs thats a long time.I wish you were here.Its just not going to be the same without you here.I still have the tape i made last year and watch it from time to time its hard but i do it.It brings back a lot of wonderful memories.Mom i just thought of something whos going to buy me my bra's.i have never bought my own lol.i guess i will have to go bra less. lol just kidding dad bought me them last yr.I will learn to buy my own it wont be the same.well i guess ill talk to you later.I LOVE YOU MOM and MISS YOU EVEN MORE.besides i cant see the keyboard anymore.We are trying to take good care of dad.He is doing the best he can but its hard but i know you want us to go on We think of you everyday the way we always did.love ya mom

Name:
Cousin Jenny
Email:
BettyBoop162130
URL:
Date:
19 Nov 2001
Time:
23:37:06

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hello there Justin and Maw-Maw. I know that it was been awhile since i wrote to u guys. and i am sorry about that. I have been thinking about u guys alot. I have been thinking about Maw-Maw, With the Holidays coming up. I realy miss her. I am cooking my 1st Thanksgiving Dinner this year. I don't know how it will turn out. Hoping good. If not, I have the pizza place on speed dial. lol lol. I know that it will not be as good as Maw-Maw's, but I hope she will be watching over me to do it right. I know she will be realy busy this year. Watching over everyone. I also hope that u will be there to, to watch over me. I need alot of help. I wish that we could all be together this year for Thanksgiving. But I know that we can't. We all have different things we have to do. But we are all trying realy hard to be together for Christmas. At the same place. Where it has always been (as long as I can remember) and always will be at Maw-Maw's and Paw-Paw's house. That will never change at all! Well, u two. I have to go for now. I will be in touch soon. Justin give Maw-Maw a big hug and kiss for me. And Maw-Maw give justin a big hug and kiss for me. I MISS YOU GUYS SOOO MUCH!!!

Name:
PAP
Email:
btridinger@aol.com
URL:
Date:
02 Nov 2001
Time:
21:07:02

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well here I am again getting back to you.I just wanted to correct my spelling of anniversary, but i,m sure you knew what i mean't. My eyes get a little cloudy when I write to you and MAMA.i sure wish i could talk to you in person then i wouldn't make those mistakes. Someday I know i will be able to do that.I was thinking of your mama last night she always liked to give the candy to the kids.She liked to see there costumes they were wearin.Well i'll let you and mama take your walk now.Love and miss you both. PAP

Name:
PAP
Email:
btridinger@aol.com
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Date:
02 Nov 2001
Time:
20:36:00

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well buddie i guess you and mama are walking hand in hand right now.i really do miss her a lot and the house is empty without her here,but i know you are taking good care of her. this is the month i dreaded to come ,this is the month of are anaversarty we will be married 52 yrs. thats a long time isn,t it.i say 52 yrs. because even though she left me in death we didn,t get a divorce so we are still married in my mind.you give her a kiss for me on the 19th. of this month and i will see you both sometime in the future.till then you two take good care of each other. i love and miss you both. lots of love and kisses to you. xoxoxoxo love PAP

Name:
Michael Gray
Email:
tripp38@aol.com
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Date:
25 Oct 2001
Time:
21:47:07

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Joan,

What a wonderful site! It is so beautiful. You are such a gifted writer. You are in my prayers always!

Mike

Name:
mommie
Email:
URL:
Date:
16 Oct 2001
Time:
03:49:04

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hello my little man, i know its been awhile since ive written and im sorry for that,its not that i dont think about u because i think of you every miniute of every day. its just so hard sometimes to come in here and write. i miss u and your grandma so bad. today i was thinkin alot about her and thinkin about the day we had to put her in the nursing home. i dont know what made me think of that day but i did.i remembered crying all day and all i kept saying was that she was never coming home to us again. everyone kept saying yes she is but i knew in my heart that she wasnt.sometimes i feel guilty because i think i should have told everyone how i felt and i should have brought her home like i wanted to and took care of her.im looking at my pic i have taped to my puter, its a pic of me and her and im giving her a big hug and she has a big smile on her face.thats the way i will always remember her she was always smiling and she always made me smile! they say god gives u only as much as u can handle. well i think ive had enough heartache in my life for a long while. First losing my baby boy then losing my best friend (my mom)i would give anything to have u two back in my life, but i guess i'll just have to see u in my dreams for now. well my little man mommie has to go for now so give your mawmaw a big kiss and hug for me and tell her that HER BABY said LOVE YOU GOODNIGHT!!

Name:
Crystal
Email:
crystalcrank@aol.com
URL:
Date:
05 Oct 2001
Time:
02:05:41

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hey there my boy i just wanted to stop in and let ya know that i am thinking about you and how i miss you so much i was over at paps the other day and was looking at some pictures of you when you born with pap mawmaw and your brother holding you at that moment i was so mad at my self cause i could not be up here to see you or hold you before you left and i was really mad at myself cause i was not here for your mom she is such a wonderful and loving woman she has always been there for me but i know that that is something i will have to deal with and never get over the truth of the matter is she has always been a second mother to me and i adore her for that when i seen that one picture of you with pap i just broke down and cried til now i never knew just how much you look like my son C.J. and it hurts me to think of the pain she goes though everyday i just wish to hard that you could come back i know that you and april would of been so close just like she is with your brother jason well i must be going for now i will write again soon i love you and miss you lots and could you please tell grandma that i love and miss her too

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude00@aol.com
URL:
Date:
05 Oct 2001
Time:
01:56:57

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hello little man its been a month since i wrote you.your mommie and i had a yard sale at your paps last weekend.it was hard seeing people buy your mamaws things.we did pretty good if we could we would keep all her things but they are just material things the important things are here in our hearts and mind things we will always keep.we have a lot of memories great memories we will always treasure.i miss her so very much.but i know she is at peace and the two of you are having the time of your lives we miss and love you both.take care of each other till we all will be together again one day love ya lots xxxxxxooooooo give some of these hugs and kisses to your mamaw.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo i will write again soon its been 4months today that your mamaw came to be with you but it seems like only yesturday that i went to her house to help your mommie put her to bed.I LOVE YOU BOTH

Name:
Missi
Email:
missi2134@aol.com
URL:
Date:
27 Sep 2001
Time:
21:51:02

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I was playin a game the other day with your mom,aunt carolyn,crystal,& jenny.I asked them what we were doing for Christmas.Your aunt carolyn said that she was spending it with our uncle Tom & Pap. I want to go but it is going to be so much harder cause for this past few years you haven't been there now,you and grandma both won't been there in body but I know you both will be there in spirt.It just won't be the same. I would do anything to have both of you there with everyone that LOVE & MISS YOU BOTH SO VERY MUCH!!!! Well I going to go for now.LOVE & MISS YOU.Also please give grandma a kiss for me and tell her that I LOVE & MISS HER ALOT. Love, Missi

Name:
Cousin Jenny
Email:
bettyboop162130
URL:
Date:
07 Sep 2001
Time:
03:41:22

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Hello there Justin. I just wanted to write to u to say hi and that I think about u alot. I also wanted to ask u to do me a fav. I no that Maw-Maw is up there with u. she has been up there with u for 3 months and 3 days. I pray at night w/ my daughter LaTesha to let Maw-Maw know how much we all love her and miss her so much. I was wondering if u could tell her that and give her a big hug and kiss from me. See, i didn't get a chance to talk to her or see her before she left us to go see u. i was making plains to come up there to see her and to surprise her. but she left us a week before i was to be there. i am sooo mad at my self for not being there. i know that there was nothing i could to save her, but i should have been there. so, i could have told her how much i love her and how much she meant to me. i know i told her everytime we talked on the phone, but i still wanted to be there. and so that she could see her great-granddaughter and so that her great-grandaughter could see her only GREATMAW-MAW. i know she knew i loved her, but i wanted to be there to tell her my self again and to see her again. i realy do hate my self for that. but now it is to late. So, if u could tell her that i am so so so so sorry for not being there earlier and to tell her i love her and i miss her sooo much and tell her she means the world to me. i would love it if u would. and i know that u understand how much she means two all of us. SHE IS AND ALWAYS WILL BE THE BEST MAW-MAW AND MOTHER IN THE WHOLE WORLD!!!! And one more thing. I know that Paw-Paw is having a very hard time with all of this. So, would u please watch over him for all of us. He means the world to me to and to the hole family. Just like Maw-Maw does. And can u make sure that he stays with us for about another 20 to 30yrs or so. I know that is alot to ask you for. But I know that u r the right person to do it. well, i have to go for now. And i am sorry that it has been a long time. I am trying my hardest to be able to talk about how i am feeling. it isn't easy for me. or any of us realy. I will write to u again. Remember that there are ALOT of people down here thinking about u and loving you everyday. I love you both. Watch over the whole family. exspecialy Paw-Paw. thanks. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Name:
mary
Email:
bubbles
URL:
Date:
05 Sep 2001
Time:
19:15:16

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hey cus. im sorry i havent talk to for in a while im always thinking about you.i miss you so much. tell maw-maw i miss her so very much. i have moved up to va bch with missi im only 5 hours away from home but im so scared to go up there,i know its not going to be the same going up there with out my maw maw being there, i miss her so much. will you and maw maw look out for paw paw i worry about him all the time, that goes for your mommy and aunt carolyn too i love them so much. and make sure you and maw maw keep a good eye on my mom (ur aunt carolyn) when she goes and see the doctor... if anything happened to her i know i couldnt handle that.i dont think could go on if anything happened to my mommy. so please do me this favor she means the world to me and then some! well i miss you and love you deeply, maw maw too! i have to go for now i cant see what im typing any more. tell maw maw love ya goodnight. love your blonde cusin mary jo

Name:
mommie
Email:
URL:
Date:
05 Sep 2001
Time:
04:18:27

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hi little man, well its 3 months since your mawmaw left us to be with u. I miss her sooo much!! i dont think its ever gonna get easier for me.ive been a little depressed lately.missing u and my mom! i try to think about diff things but i cant get u 2 off my mind. i found a pic the other day of me and her. its such a good picture it shows me hugging her and her giving that smile that i miss so much.your pap came up for dinner the other night, i love when he comes up here but its so hard to see him leave by himself.it makes me really sad.i worry about him all the time. guess i am like your mawmaw she was the same way (worried about everyone else)but thats ok i like being like her cause she was the best!!! well gotta go little man give mawmaw a kiss for me and tell her love you goodnight!!! love mommie

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude00@aol.com
URL:
Date:
05 Sep 2001
Time:
01:27:23

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hello little man im sorry its been a month since i talked to you.but there hasnt been 1 day or minute that i wasnt thinking of you.went to see your mommie and daddys lawyer we all had to go over what should have been a wonderful time in our lives but instead the worst day.if the nurses and doc would have done what they should have we would have never lost you im so sorry.but one day we will all be together again.it is sept.4th 3 months have passed since your mam maw left us for a better place no more suffering no more pain you and her even though we would rather have you both here with us are in a better place just keep in mind we will one day all be together.will you and your mam maw please keep me in your prayers and ask god to watch over me when i go to the doc.i have a tumor in my face by my ear they say there nothing to worry about but you know i am i worry about everything.give my mom a big kiss and hug from me tell her i love her and miss her very much and wish she was here with us i know she will be with me when i go to the doc.i love and miss you to very much.i will write again soon. i love you both

Name:
mommie
Email:
URL:
Date:
16 Aug 2001
Time:
03:48:39

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my dearest little man, its me mommie again, i miss u soooo much. well yesterday me your dad and your aunt carolyn had to do our depositions.it was so hard re living your death all over again.i was just getting to a point in my life where it was getting a little eaiser to think and talk about u. and then we had to go through all of this again.i was talkin to our lawyer and he said we should get a good amount of money for what the doc and hospital did 2 u and what they put me and your dad through. i told him money doesnt matter to me i just want justice for my son and i want them to know whay they took from me.unless u lose a child noone knows what a parent especially a mother goes through, i feel like a part of my life is gone, between losing u and losing my mother i feel like im going crazy. i miss her and u so much!! while i was going thru those depositions i just wanted her to be with me so much i needed my mom so bad. she was always there for me, to comfort me when i was sad.but i know she was with me in spirit. well mommie has to go im getting tired. i love you and miss you soooo much. always remember that till we meet again... give your mawmaw a big kiss for me and tell her i said "love you goodnight" love mommie

Name:
auncarolyn
Email:
cmaude00
URL:
Date:
07 Jul 2001
Time:
15:12:40

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Hello little man.willo you give your mammal a message tell her i love her and miss her an awlful lot.i also love you and miss you alot.I saw you sitting on mammals lap watching the fire works everytime i looked up to see them.you both looked very happy together.yous had a front row seat.it was 1 month on that day your mammal left earth to be with you.she will always be with us in our heart and on our minds she is every where.you to are in our hearts and always on our mind.well little man take care and take care of my mom for me we love you both we will all be together again one day.i will write again soon love ya both me

Name:
MOMMIE
Email:
URL:
Date:
25 Jun 2001
Time:
15:42:51

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WELL MY LITTLE MAN ITS ME MOMMIE,SATURDAY I WENT OUT TO THE CEMETARY TO SIT AND TALK TO YOUR MAMAW. IT WAS SO PEACEFUL OUT THERE.I HAD A LONG TALK WITH HER.I TOLD HER HOW MUCH I MISS HER AND HOW SAD I STILL AM HERE WITHOUT HER.I DONT KNOW IF I WILL EVER GET OVER LOSING HER SHE WAS MY BEST FRIEND AND NOW I DONT HAVE HER TO GO TO WHEN I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO.ONE THING THAT HELPS A LITTLE IS KNOWING THAT U HAVE HER NOW AND SHE CAN HELP YOU WHEN U NEED HER..I KNOW SHE IS TELLING U ALL ABOUT US.AND HOW WE MISSED U SO MUCH.SHE KNEW HOW DEVESTATED I WAS WHEN I LOST U.NEVER GETTING TO SEE YOU SMILE OR SEE U TAKE YOUR FIRST STEP OR HEAR YOU SAY MOMMIE FOR THE FIRST TIME.WELL LITTLE MAN MOMMIE HAS TO GO FOR NOW MAKE SURE U TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOUR MAMAW AND GIVE HER LOTS OF HUGS AND KISSES FOR ME OH AND MAKE SURE NOT TO FORGET TO TELL HER "LOVE YOU GOODNIGHT" FOR ME EVEYNIGHT.I MISS THAT SOOOO MUCH!!!TALK TO YOU AGAIN SOON LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER MOMMIE

Name:
Mary Jo
Email:
URL:
Date:
11 Jun 2001
Time:
19:18:42

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Hi Justin,sorry I dont write much but I dont have a computer like everyone else. I just want to say hi and tell you that I think about you. Also can you do your cousin a favor? Give our grandmother a big long hug for me I miss her very much and I dont know how Im going to deal with her not being here anymore. I miss her so much,she was a big part of all our lives. As you know she is very special...just like you are. I love and miss you BOTH. Mary Jo

Name:
Mary Jo
Email:
URL:
Date:
11 Jun 2001
Time:
19:12:03

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Name:
granpa
Email:
btridinger@aol.com
URL:
Date:
08 Jun 2001
Time:
15:51:29

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well buddy mama has just come to join you.i know right now you and her are walking hand in hand around heaven. please do pap a favor and take good care of her as i know she will take care of you someday i hope to join you and then i can take your other hand and walk with both of you.until i get there will you please give her a kiss for me and tell her pap will be there. i want you to know i love you both very much so until i get there heres a kisses for you both xxxxx LOVE PAP

Name:
mommy
Email:
URL:
Date:
06 Jun 2001
Time:
03:01:22

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hello my little angel, this has been a very sad week for me. yesterday your mamaw left me.She has come to be with you.please take good care of her for me Like she took care of your mommy for 37 years. Like u already know she is a very special person.She is and always will be MY BEST FRIEND!! I miss her so much already. I was in helping your aunt carolyn clean the house today and i realized my mom is never gonna be there again it hit me very hard.. Sometimes i wish i wasnt so close to your mamaw and pap. then it wouldnt hurt soooooo much. I dont know what im gonna do without her. she was always there for me in good times and bad. Now who do i tell all my secrets and problems too? I know i have a wonderful family here that i can talk to but... I want my mom back! I dont know how much more heartache i can take first losing u and now losing my mother.I thought losing u was the worse thing that would ever happen to me but losing your mother is like losing a part of your soul and your heart. I never got to know u and it was so very hard. I knew my mom for 37 years and i dont know if i can take it. well mommy has to go for now but i'll be back soon. take care of my mom for me and watch over your pap he needs us all to be strong for him right now.. Remember mommy loves u always and forever

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude00@aol,com
URL:
Date:
06 Jun 2001
Time:
01:50:10

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Well little man the day has come for you to meet your mamaw.By now she is spoiling you rotten already.Of course all of us here are very very sad she left us.But we are happy for you.Now you will find out what a wonderful person she really is.We will miss her deeply but we will always have her in our hearts just like you are.We will also have all our memories of her each one different and special.well little man i will have to go for now i can no longer see the keyboard to type.Just remember I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH.and take care of my MOTHER and your mamaw.

Name:
Crystal
Email:
crystalcrank@aol.com
URL:
Date:
22 May 2001
Time:
02:18:04

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well hello there justin its just me i just wanted to write and say that i miss you and that i love you and how sorry i am that it has been so long since the last time i talked to you well i really hate to cut this so short but im tired so i will write you again real soon just always remember that i love you so much and miss you dearly talk to you sson love always crystal

Name:
mommy
Email:
URL:
Date:
15 May 2001
Time:
03:38:46

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well here i am again little man.its now mon night and i saw your mawmaw today. she was wonderful!! She was like her old self.It was so good seeing her like that again.I guess you must have put a good word in for her.thank u for watching out for her.Guess u and god had a little talk and decided she would stay with us a while longer. Im so glad.Im not ready to give her up yet.Guess im a little selfish but i want her here.well gotta go for now but mommy will be back soon love you always and forever!! MOMMY

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude00
URL:
Date:
14 May 2001
Time:
15:00:40

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hello little man yesturday was mothers day.it didnt go to well.there was a little sadness.we all went to see your mamaw.she is very sick and in the hospital.i know she knew we were all there.but we just couldnt wake her up to well but she knew.i believe that your mamaw will see you soon we will allbe sad when she does but happy for her she will not be suffering no more and she will be able to be with you.she is a wonderfull person and is a kind and gentle and fair mother wife and grandmother you will really love her just like we all do.we will all miss her but she will always be in our hearts.the two of you can take care of each other untill we can all be together.say a little prayer for your mamaw so she doesnt suffer long.we dont want her to go but we dont want her to suffer she is a wonderfull person whose had a good life and was always there for everyone especially for her family.well little man i have to go for now i am going to see your mamaw i will tell her i talked to you today and you are waiting to see her.i love you talk to you again soon

Name:
Missi
Email:
missi2134@aol.com
URL:
Date:
14 May 2001
Time:
07:07:44

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Hi Justin, I talked to your mommy today she said that grandma isn't doing to well.I wish that I could see her.I live closer then your other two cousins and I don't get to see grandma as much as I would like to.I feel so guilt not going to see her & grandpa more.I love them both so very much.Watch over grandma for us.We don't want her to leave us but we also don't want her to suffer either.Well I need to get going I'll write you again soon.I love and miss you alot.Love, Missi

Name:
mommy
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Date:
14 May 2001
Time:
04:57:43

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well justin its mommy again. I saw your mawmaw today she is very sick.I think pretty soon u will get to meet her.It is so hard for, me my heart says i want her to stay with me but my head says let her go cause she is suffering so.I don't know what im gonna do without her. she is my best friend.I will have no one to say love you goodnight to anymore.justin my heart aches so bad for u and your grandma.the only comfort i will have is that she will be with u and i know she will take care of you just like she took care of me for 37 years.she is the best mom and grandma anyone could hope for.Its so hard to see her because she use to be so outgoing and always on the go and now she just lies in her bed and sometimes just stares.It hurts me cause she looks so scared and theres nothing i can do to help her.She was always there for me and now i feel like im helpless.so please say a prayer for your mawmaw and ask god to please dont let her suffer she is a wonderful woman and she dosent deserve to suffer.shes been through enough.mommys gonna go so i'll be back soon to talk to u remember i love you with all my heart and i think of you EVERYDAY!!!love mommy

Name:
mommy
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Date:
13 May 2001
Time:
15:53:18

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well my little man today is a very sad time for me. It is mothers day.I think of u evey day but today is especially hard for me.I miss u very much and love u very much.well mommy has to go for now i'll write to u soon. love always and forever mommy

Name:
Lori Rains
Email:
LBeaner91@aol.com
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Date:
30 Apr 2001
Time:
01:30:13

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Favorite cuz, that is beautiful. I hope everything turns out ok with you. I Love You

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude00
URL:
Date:
12 Apr 2001
Time:
15:59:33

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Hello little man today we saw your little cousin.He is not here yet but we saw a picture of him.He is due in may.After we were done your mommy and i and your cousin crystal went to the place were you were when you were very sick.It was so hard being there because it is the place were we held you and were we had to say our goodbye's.That was the sadest day of all of our lives.But we all know one day we will be all together again.And we cant wait.Well sunday is Easter i know you will have a good one just remember we all love you.

Name:
mommy
Email:
joanbob96@aol.com
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Date:
10 Apr 2001
Time:
17:07:56

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dear Justin, I think about you every single day of my life but today im thinking of you alot. I just came back from seeing crystals ultrasound. It was a very happy moment for me her and her mom but i couldnt help from crying thinkin about you.I wonder sometimes if it is ever gonna get easier.I know you are my little angel but i still grieve so much for you.I still hold so much anger inside of me towards the hospital nurses doctors and yes i hate to say it but even GOD. How could he do this to me.I see all the children in this world being abused by there parents and it just makes me sick.You are so loved even though u are not here I cant even imagine how spoiled and loved u would have been if you were here.well my little man mommy has to go to work for now so I'll be back soon to write you again. till then remember mommy loves you always and forever! Until we meet again xoxoxoxoxo

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude00@aol.com
URL:
Date:
04 Mar 2001
Time:
21:58:39

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hello little man its been almost a month since i talked to you.right now its sun. and snowing and raining.where you are the sun is always shining and its warm peaceful and free of worries.in a few days its your mamaws birthday.i dont want to lose her but i dont want her to suffer either.could you put a good word in for her so she doesnt.she has been through a lot in her lifetime and i think she is getting tired.well my little angel i love you and we will all be together one day.

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude00@aol.com
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Date:
07 Feb 2001
Time:
02:35:21

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hello little man, today we said goodbye to another little one only he was a little older than you he was 9 his name was cody. he is up there with you maybe the two of yous could get to know each other.he is a good hearted boy and very friendly you will like him.i know the two of you will hit it off just fine.i know you to would have been just like him goodhearted friendly and loveable.i found were you were today and your mom put some flowers for you. there was a lot of snow but i kept trying till i found you.i would have moved all the snow if i had to just to find you.i love you justin very much

Name:
PAP
Email:
btridinger@aol.com
URL:
Date:
28 Jan 2001
Time:
01:22:25

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My Buddie I want you to know that I think about you often and what life would have been if you were here.I try sometimes to put you out of my mind to keep from some of the sadness but you know you will never be out of my heart.I know I missed out on the fun of watching you grow up with your big brother.I will miss all the things me and the J&J boys could have done together.I do know you are looking down on me and saying to everyone THATS MY PAP I want you to know I love you very much LOVE YOU YOUR PAP

Name:
Missi
Email:
missi2134@aol.com
URL:
Date:
24 Jan 2001
Time:
19:04:36

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Hello our sweet angel. This is your cousin Missi. I have to get something off my chest. Your cousin Crystal is having a baby & the doctor says that it is a boy. Don't get me wrong I'm happy for her but she said something at christmas that really hurt me. Everyone knows that I wanted to have your Aunt Carolyn's 1st grandson but I guess God wanted Crystal to have that child. Noone really knows how much it hurts me not to be the one to have the 1st grandson/great-grandson. In time I know I'll get over this but it's hard to do that right now. Well I'm going to go now. Love your cousin, Missi

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude00
URL:
Date:
17 Jan 2001
Time:
02:48:18

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Well honey, 3 yrs ago today was a sad day for all of us.It was the day we all had to say our i love yous and our one day we will all be in heaven together.We did not say goodbye but see you again in heaven.I miss you so much and love you even more.I promise we will celabrate all your birthdays when we are all together again.Sweet dreams my dear nephew i know you are in good hands. love always and forever Aunt carolyn

Name:
Jenny Matos
Email:
BettyBoop162130
URL:
Date:
16 Jan 2001
Time:
06:25:30

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Dear Justin, Just wanted to wish you a Happy 3rd Birthday, and to let you know that I love and miss you much. LaTesha said hi and Happy Birthday, and she said she loves you much.

Name:
Missi
Email:
missi2134@aol.com
URL:
Date:
16 Jan 2001
Time:
05:36:33

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Happy 3rd. Birthday Justin. I miss & love you so much. I can't wait til the day I can see you up in heaven. But for now I can see you in my dreams. The only image I have of you is the one I saw in pictures of you, that will have to do til I see you in heaven. I wish i could of been in Pa. with your mom,dad and brother but I couldn't and I'm sorry for that. But your mom knows that I love her very much and that I would have been there if I could. So do your favorite cousin a favor and watch over your mom a little bit more than the rest of us cause I worry about her since I don't get to see her that often. OK? Love, Missi

Name:
Crystal
Email:
crystalcrank@aol.com
URL:
Date:
16 Jan 2001
Time:
04:20:08

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well justin i just wanted to say happy birthday and im so sorry it is a day late i just wanted to say that i love you and you will always be in my heart and mindlove always your cousin crystal

Name:
mommy
Email:
joanbob96@aol.com
URL:
Date:
16 Jan 2001
Time:
04:00:51

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Happy Birthday my sweet little boy!! Today you would have been 3 years old. I wish you were here so i could give you lots of kisses and hugs.Instead i sit here and look at your picture and cry many tears.I miss you very much, so does your daddy and your big brother.I just keep thinking that someday we will be together and i will have the chance to see your beautiful little eyes open and a smile on your face.Just remember mommy loves you very much and i think of you everyday of my life.. Love always and forever, mommy

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude00@aol
URL:
Date:
15 Jan 2001
Time:
22:31:39

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well hello dear nephew happy birthday today you are 3 yrs old.another one we have to celebrate when we all get to heaven.i went to see your mom today to make sure she was doing alright she is doing the best she can but it is hard.she puts on a good face for everyone.it is hard for all of us not having you here with us but more so for her because she carried you for 9 months and could feel you when you moved and kicked her.well i will write again tomorrow.i love you so much and miss you also.

Name:
Crystal
Email:
crystalcrank@aol.com
URL:
Date:
12 Jan 2001
Time:
03:35:29

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well hello there justin i know i have not wrote in a long time but it is hard for me to write down my feelings and the way i feel your birthday is almost here and god knows how much i wish you were here you are loved and missed by so many people here specialy by me i was pregnant with your cousin april when you were brought into this world and i was so happy for your mommy and daddy and when i had april i truely knew what it felt like to have created such a wonderful and beautiful baby like yourself but when the time came for you to leave us i was so torn and hurt no words could really describe the pain and hurt i felt to know you were taken on my birthday and how i could not see you or even be there to hold you in my arms and comfort your mommy who is such a wonderful and beautiful person who i care so much for one thing for sure is that i have your pictures so i can at least see you now every day til the day comes i can be with you forever in heaven but til then always remember that i love you and miss you dear and you will always be in my thoughts and in my heart i love you justin love always your cousin crystal

Name:
joan
Email:
joanbob96@aol.com
URL:
Date:
08 Jan 2001
Time:
05:36:59

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dear justin, well here i am again sittin here not able to sleep cause im thinking of you. I miss you so much!! It has been a very long 3 years.Theres not a day goes by I don't think of you.I still can't believe its 3 years it seems like only yesterday that i held you in my arms.It just makes me so mad cause i know you would have been sooo loved here and so happy. I see your brother the way he plays with his cousin april who is a year younger than you and he just lights up. I know he would have been the same way with you.I didn't tell anyone this but i told him his cousin crystal was having a little boy and he said maybe he will look a little like you. I said well maybe.well mommies gonna try to go to sleep now so i will write again real soon!! LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER!! MOMMY

Name:
Jenny Matos
Email:
BettyBoop162130
URL:
Date:
04 Jan 2001
Time:
02:58:30

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Dear Cousin Justin, This is your cousin Jenny. I am sooo sorry I have not wrote to you. I am the one that is bad with words. I have a hard time trying to write them down, but I am not bad about thinking about you and loving you. Even if I was not there to see you or hold you, you are in my heart and thoughts and always will be... I seen your photo. You are sooo Beautiful. You must get that from your Mommy. She is a Wonderful Lady. Your Daddy and Big Brother are Wonderful to. But i guess you already know that. You were born in to a very very big and wonderful family.Everyone misses you and loves you sooo much. I know you are up there watching over all of us everyday and I thank you for that. But just watch over your mom a little more then us, cuz she realy misses you and is having a hard time with this. We try to help her but it aint the same. So, Justin just watch her. Thanks. Love and Miss You Much. Hugs and Kisses. Love Alway and Forever, Cousin Jenny xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo Love, LaTesha

Name:
Jenny Matos
Email:
BettyBoop162130
URL:
Date:
04 Jan 2001
Time:
02:46:09

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Dear Cousin Justin, This is your cousin Jenny. I am sooo sorry I have not wrote to you. I am the one that is bad with words. I have a hard time trying to write them down, but I am not bad about thinking about you and loving you. Even if I was not there to see you or hold you, you are in my heart and thoughts and always will be... I seen your photo. You are sooo Beautiful. You must get that from your Mommy. She is a Wonderful Lady. Your Daddy and Big Brother are Wonderful to. But i guess you already know that. You were born in to a very very big and wonderful family.Everyone misses you and loves you sooo much. I know you are up there watching over all of us everyday and I thank you for that. But just watch over your mom a little more then us, cuz she realy misses you and is having a hard time with this. We try to help her but it aint the same. So, Justin just watch her. Thanks. Love and Miss You Much. Hugs and Kisses. Love Alway and Forever, Cousin Jenny xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo Love, LaTesha

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude00@aol.com
URL:
Date:
02 Jan 2001
Time:
01:46:48

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dear justin this is jan.1st This is a sad month for everyone who loves you.You are thought of everyday but especially in this month its your birthday soon.And we should all be happy birthday party for now you are 3 yrs old.It seems like yesturday i held you in my arms.I wish i was doing that today but i can only hold you in my heart untill we meet again in heaven.I love you so much.Your big brother and i talk about you all the time.He ask me questions all the time and i try to answer him the best i can but I dont always know all the answers.Like why you had to leave us at such an early age.I told him that god had a special plan for you and he needed you with him.I myself dont understand but we shouldnt question god but sometimes its hard.I will write again closer to your birthday.Just remember I LOVE YOU and cant wait to see you again.

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Date:
15 Dec 2000
Time:
01:36:31

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Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude00@aol.com
URL:
Date:
14 Dec 2000
Time:
19:11:48

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hello justin, I just wanted to let you know i love you and think of you often.Some days more than others.Jan.15th will be your 3rd birthday so happy birthday i know you are happy where you are at but i wish you were here.one day that wish will come true and we can throw a big birthday party for all the ones we missed together.We will all see you again in heaven.Till then you are always on our minds and in our hearts sweet angel

love you, aunt carolyn

Name:
PAP
Email:
btridinger
URL:
Date:
06 Dec 2000
Time:
12:54:03

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dear grandson this is your pap talking to you you know me because I held you when you were sick and when you were gone from me.I was denide the oppertunity tom to watch you grow and play with your brother you two would have fun in paps shop.we could have taken walks together with you holding my hand.well pap is getting old and someday we will take those walks together.I love and miss you very much. your PAP

Name:
Mary Jo
Email:
missiyettman@aol.com
URL:
Date:
18 Nov 2000
Time:
02:49:13

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Hi Justin, I just came from seeing your mom, dad and brother Jason. They all miss you very much. I know I do. Do you know how very special you are? I wish I was there to see you. Your mom is very stronge, I know how she hurts, I dont want to think about it my self but I know it is good to talk about this. Will you do me a favor, will you look out for you cousin for me and tell him/her that I do still think about my baby. I do wish I could of seen your little fingers and toes. But most of all your cute little smile! I know one day I will be able to see you. Just remember we all love and miss you sssoooo much!!!!! You are a big part of our big family. I Love and miss you dearly, Your Cousin Mary Jo

Name:
Mary Jo
Email:
URL:
Date:
18 Nov 2000
Time:
02:20:59

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Hi Justin, I just came from seeing your mom,dad and Jason. I know they all miss you dearly,I know I do and I didnt even get to meet you,hold you or talk to you. But I know one thing you are very special to alot of people. I know how your mom hurts. I dont want to say how because it still hurts me to think about it but she is stronge. I hope you find your cousin in heaven and look after him/her for me. I wish I got to hold you just once,see your little fingers and toes. But most of all to see your cute,little smile. We all miss you dearly. We all Love you deeply. But I have to go I cant see to type... I Love You!!! Love your cousin Mary Jo

Name:
Missi
Email:
missiyettman@aol.com
URL:
Date:
11 Nov 2000
Time:
22:23:54

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It will be 3yrs. in Jan. everyone misses you so much. Your mom tries to be strong around the family but I know it hurts her that you're not here.She sees her nieces that were born after you went to heaven and she wonders what you would look like at their age.I wonder what you look like also.You may not know this but your 2nd. cousin Courtney was concieved a year and 2 days after you passed on.I wish I know why that had happen cause I wasn't even trying to get pregnant.Maybe it was a sign or something I don't know.We all miss and love you very much.LOVE,Missi

Name:
joan
Email:
joanbob96@aol.com
URL:
Date:
11 Nov 2000
Time:
04:07:52

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Justin, I can't believe it will be 3 years in jan since I touched your little face. Everyone says it will get easier with time. but for me it doesn't!! Sometimes I feel so alone. I know i have a wonderful family here on earth but sometimes i just miss you so much. I have cried so many tears in the past 3 years,I try to hide it. Everyone thinks im so strong. Well I put on a good face. I get so mad at the doc. and hospital sometimes that i can't hardley stand it.It makes me feel better to talk about you and look at your pictures but alot of people including your dad try to forget WELL I CAN'T!!! I miss you so much. I wonder what you would look like now.If you would have looked like your big brother.He misses you very much too. he asks about you all the time.He still wonders why god took you from us. I have no answers for him because i still wonder why myself. Remember justin mommy loves u with all her heart and i long for the day we will be together again.Hugs and kisses untill then love mommy

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude94@aol.com
URL:
Date:
09 Nov 2000
Time:
19:07:32

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I love you Justin. I think of you always.And i know we will all be together in heaven with you one day.

Name:
missi
Email:
missiyettman@aol.com
URL:
Date:
21 Oct 2000
Time:
05:01:31

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I know that I never got to see you when you were born,but I got to see pictures.You are missed and loved by many people down here ,but we all know you are in good hands up there.I read this poem and thought of you. A child is now at rest for a safer place he remains.A world of goodness and beauty,a world without worry or pain.No fear will he encounter for a better placehe'll be.A place where the sick are healed and where blinded eyes can see.Our world has forever changed,our lives are not the same.But close with in our hearts his precious face remains.We give to him our tears and our prayers we send above.We cherish all the memories filled with happiness and love.He'll have someone to depend on.A helping hand is there to lend.For the father shall be watching.And in heaven,he'll have a friend.But in the end we'll all be together. LOVE, MISSI

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude94@aol.com
URL:
Date:
12 Oct 2000
Time:
04:09:22

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my dear nephew justin, today i watched a little boy named jake he has the same features as i know you would have had.I think of you all the time.when i watch jake run and play i pretend its you.I will always love you.I know you are in good hands.one day we will all be together in heaven. just remember I LOVE YOU always aunt carolyn

Name:
aunt carolyn
Email:
cmaude94@aol.com
URL:
Date:
03 Oct 2000
Time:
03:27:13

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even though its been 3 yrs in jan.it seems like only yesterday i held you in my arms kissed you and told you how much i loved you.then i had to turn to your big brother who was only 4 at the time and tell him why god wanted and needed his little brother with him in heaven.he was to little but i know he understood that we will all be together in heaven again.you are always in my heart i cant wait to see you again. I LOVE YOU love, aunt carolyn

Name:
crystal
Email:
crystalcrank@aol.com
URL:
Date:
30 May 2000
Time:
04:20:26

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im sorry for all the pain you have gone through and are still going through i wish i could of been there with you to comfort you the best way i could of you uncle bob and jason will always be in my hearts i know i never got a chance to see him but in my heart i feel i already have i love you all

Name:
your brother
Email:
driding@aol.com
URL:
Date:
26 May 2000
Time:
03:03:27

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someday we will see justin in heaven, as a grown man.

Name:
aunt carolyn
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Date:
25 May 2000
Time:
02:30:53

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i will always love you

Name:
Rachelle
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Date:
14 May 2000
Time:
04:19:44

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With deepest sympathy.

Name:
Nancy
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Date:
14 May 2000
Time:
04:19:33

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I am so sorry for your loss. May God be with you.