Michele Butaud Guestbook
Time flies... but my heart has yet to heal.. i keep thinking that it's not possible that 9 years have passed.. i am on vacation in NC and borrowing a computer and don't have time to say everything i want.. just know that i love you and miss you more than i could ever possibly imagine missing someone.. the tears still flow so freely and i often wonder if people think of you as much as i do.. i was told not long ago that people thought i was obcessed with your death... i was devistated - not obcessed.. for anyone that may have thought that.... I miss you and i love you - today as much as always - I told my mom the other day that there is a little irony in the fact that my daughter Abby only hears her middle name when she's in trouble.... I got a good laugh out of it - and i'm sure that you did to. Love - Valerie
Sorry it took so long to find this website I never knew about it. But I will be keeping an eye on it now...
Hello, my friend. I can't believe so much time has passed. I think of you often... where you would be or what you would be doing with your life if you were still here. You are missed greatly by all of your friends. Your leaving taught me a great life lesson that never seems to fade... "tomorrow is not promised, live each day as if it were your last" and I assure you I have been doing my best to make your leaving mean something by living my life to the fullest (mistakes and all - but no regrets). Your friendship was a blessing to me (although I was too young to appreciate it and embrace it). We shared a lot of good times and I carry those memories with me.
It's been nine years and I still think of you often. Wish you were here!
Michele, Today you left us almost 10 years ago, and I just cant believe its been that long. It seems like yesterday about 15 of us would meet at Papacita's every week! You taught me so much, I looked up to you like a big sister. I hope I am making you proud. Little Miss Kaelan Michele is doing good. Oh, I wish you could see her. I love and miss you! mwah Mandy
As Michelle's Uncle, I just want to say thank you Valerie for putting this up. I am sorry that I did not see it sooner. I truly miss this little girl. I do wish that I had spent more time with her, mentoring and helping her with life's complications. So many things went on in her life, that I should have been more aware of. Her mother should have done a better job and her step father should have been thrown in prison(from stories I have learned). As always is the case: I wish I would have done more. Thank you again for this little reminder of my little neice..
Hey beautiful! It's been a while and I just wanted to leave you a message that I love and miss you so much. I spent a year in Texas and got to see Mackenzie, Grandmama and Grandaddy. She is just as beautiful as you are. Well, it seems that I have been cursed to lose people who have meant so much to me. Last March I suffered am extrememly tragic loss of someone very special to me. Maybe you and him can team up to get me through the upcoming events. I remember all the nights that I literally slept at the cemetary. You were like my big sister. You always toted me all over town. Ironically, the 2 days before I could have toted you around town (my 16th b-day), you were taken away from us. I went through so many emotions when you left and now I relive those emotions with losing Trey. I love and miss you always... Mandy Mae
Another year passes - 8 years and it is supposed to be easier by now. I pray for God to take away this misery... I miss you and I Love you dearly... one day i'll see you again - one day...... Val
How strange that on my birthday... I get information to write a memorial about you in a book that will be published.... how strange that a week before your birthday, someone with the same last name as you from the same city you came from contacts me wanting more information about you..... How strange that the other day I saw someone that almost looked just like you... and how strange that I have dreamt about you alot lately... are you trying to tell me something? DO I sound nuts for even thinking such a thing?? I miss you... and I love you. Valerie
The holidays are here again.... your birthday is soon... Mackenzie just turned 8 and I saw her and she is such a beautiful child.. I know that you are smiling down on her.. I love you dearly and miss you tremendously!
Another year passes....... my heart hurts. It hurts to a point, I can't even describe it... 7 years..... but the pain of her death still seems like it only happened not long ago...
I love you Michele.. and I miss you dearly.
Valerie
Valerie...I wanted to say how sweet and touching your memorials to Michelle are. I am so sorry that you do not have your best-friend with you any longer. You were truly blessed to have had such a friend (as was she) but you are aware of that I do believe. I wish for you peace in your heart, it is unbearable sometimes when we lose people we love so very much. I hope that you get to see her little girl often. Take of yourself and your little one...mg
It's odd to me that the last post wasn't signed by anyone... It's even more odd to me that anyone that truely knew Michele would ever think that people forgot about her. How do you forget the person that knows your every secret, the person that knew what you were thinking without asking?? How could I forget about the person that I think about daily even 6 1/2 years later.. the person that stays with me in my dreams almost daily.... The girls who will forever be stained into my heart and soul..
How can you say Michele Haunts you?? How can such a beautiful person ever be something that is considered "haunting". Somedays I think I see her when I know she's not there.. in my dreams when I wake up, she's not always quite gone when I open my eyes... The sadest part.. it's the only place I can see her now, and I consider it a blessing, not a haunting..
so.... maybe you should sign your name next time, especially so it doesn't look like it's from me. Thanks.
Valerie
Where is everybody? Did they forget about you? Not me. Never. You haunt me.
I'm Kevin's current girlfriend. Michele, I just want you to know that Kevin still loves you and that I promise to take good care of him and kenzie.
I'm Kevin's current girlfriend. Michele, I just want to let you know that he still loves you and that I promise to take good care of him and Kenzie.
Hi Michele,
Just wanted to say I miss you! You have always been very special to me. I remember you as a friend, but also as a "little sister". I say that b/c it seemed like I was always trying to keep you out of trouble! I mean that in a good way.. I remember the times you would call me in Houston and I'd drive all the way to Henderson in the middle of the night to pick you up! I would drop you off at my apartment, get dressed, and head off to work. I was soo... tired... But you always made me feel like I was someone you needed, and someone you could always depend on. I'm thankful we had each other. You always gave me someone to cry to and talk to ---thank you. We had a lot of great times. Thanks to you and Shannon for teaching me it's o.k. to have fun.... Days for me now are still fun, but in a different way. I'm re-married and have 2 beautiful girls. I have enjoyed watching Mackenzie grow up--her and Brittney and Jodi have always enjoyed each other. I hope they are able to be as close as we were growing up. Even though I hate your gone, I'm glad to know someone is up there always looking over us. Until we see you again...
Love Always...
I cant even begin to express how much I miss my best friend. Girl, you know all the letters I've left for you and everyday I still think about you. I wanted so bad for you to be there to see my baby girl. but i know you watch over her everyday. Val, i've known about this for a while but just never could leave my piece here, i dont know why you didnt care for me but its apparent that you cared for michele and thats all that matters. when i call and talk to mackenzie i have to fight back the tears, she truly is as beautiful as you. To this day i still have dreams about you. i had a dream about you when you were like 5 and i didnt even know you then, they are so real. even if it just gives me those breif moments with you, sometimes that gets me thru the day. i wish i was able to stay close to other friends of ours but it seemed like after a year or so everyone fell away.. and i am still hurting but pple move on.. with all the heartache i go thru everyday with my little kaelan michele i know you are right there pushing for us. i still beat my self up for leaving. after you died i promised to be there for kenzie, and now i cant be there like i want. girl i know i will see you soon, and i cannot wait.
My dearest Michele~ It has been quite some time since I have been to visit you. I just can't seem to do it. I live away now and it's just to hard. I think about you and your beautiful little girl daily. When there are hard times I can feel you there. I know we had our differences but we had more good times than bad. You had so much life to live. It was cut short so soon. I want to be there for your daughter as much as I can. I hope that if we (all of your friends and family) can surround her she will be able to know you and who you were. Thanks for all the good time and the bad (that made me who I am today). Your life and your death has taught me so much about who to be and who I am. You left behind some incredible people who will never be able to forget you or the impact you made on their lives. Thank you!!
Michele. it has been so long since i've talked with you or since i visited you. today is my 16th birthday and God knows i miss you so much. I wish so bad that you could be here because i know we would be so close the way we were starting to be right before you died. Those moments we shared were the best ones in my life and i will never forget them for as long as i live. Sometimes when i go through hard times i know that you're there to comfort me and that you're telling me everything is alright like times like now. Thanks you for being here with me. i miss you so much and i will try my hardest to be the best aunt i can for Mackenzie which i had told you before. i love you so much and i can't wait to see you again one sweet day. ME
i just wanted to say i love you.. i saw a video last night that i didn't even know you were on. i miss you.. i talked to mackenzie this morning.. and she told me that god was taking good care of her mommy.. it broke my heart./ i miss you so much, and i love you more than you will ever know.. love, valerie
dear all,
omg this site is so touching and i never cry and this site made me i can imagine how bad of a loss this must have been for u all and i want to say that i give my best wishes to you all and god bless best wishes, billy
michele,
it has been three years and this is supposed to get easier.. and it hasn't.. i hate this... i miss you... i am not going to go on and on about it... just tell you that i love you, you will always be my best friend, and that i miss you tremendously... i'll see ya when i get there girl....
eternal love, valerie kimmey
i wish all the best for you and you beloved ones, samantha sims
Michele,
Life continues to go on while my world often seems to stop when i think of you. I found a letter you wrote me back in 1994 today. Tell me that you missed me and that you would see me when you got home..... and it made me think, i guess it is vice versa now, i will ee you when i get home. I am trying to best that i can to keep going. Your daughter is so beautiful. So much like you that it is amazing. She plays with Devin and they have a good time together. zi think this part of year is hardest, mackenzie's birthday, yours, and then mine all in a row. Then things get better for a while and here comes June. I plan on going to the beach this year , it will be the first time i have been since you died. I wish you were here. your sister needs you so bad, she is getting into so much trouble. I try to talk to her, she looks at me like a big sister, but i can't seem to get through that beautiful head of hers. But i pray for her daily and know that she will be aright. It is 5 am so i think i will go to bed now, i have been up cleaning house all night long, it is hard to do with devin awake, so this is the only way to do it Have company coming this weekend, don't want him to think i can't keep a house clean..... lol ..... I miss you girl.... and i love you for all eternity. Best Friends forever, Valerie Kimmey
michele, I miss you , life is not the same and i wish you were here. please help me! I love you!!!!!
Best Friends for all eternity
love, Valerie
michele, today is mackenzie's 3rd birthday ..... I sit here and think how this day was 3 years ago, me standing there holding your hand for 15 hours until she was born. so beautiful, she sounded like a cat when she came out. lol ..... *tears* i remember your face when she was born the joy that rushed over you when she was finally here. Such a great mommy you were.... I wish that you were here today..... I love you so much michele, and i have been doing better about all this and trying to let my life go on with out misery anymore.... I miss you so much though. Mackenzie is 3 years old for christs sakes........It has been a depressing day as it always is in the holiday times, the old thanksgivings without you.... mackenzie's birthday the next week, and your birthday christmas day... you were to be 21 this year, finally legal to go out and party. We would have so much fun michele, yet i plan on celebrating your 21st birthday as i was going to with you..... I love you so much! you are my best friend and you always will be, no one will ever take your place. *smooches* love, valerie best friends for all eternity "see ya when i get there"
hi once again sweetie! i miss you so much,,, i keep seeing your name everywhere, spelled with 1 "L"....... the lady at my new apartment the girls name was michele, i got an email the other day and it was from a friend but at the top of it it said , "hey sweetie, i found t his and thought you would like it love, michele" it was a forward! are you emailing me from heaven?????? that would be too cool! lol on my way to work this morning i saw a sigh that said flowers by michele just for my friends...... i almost started to cry, but i held it in. sometimes i swear you are sending me messages, and even if you aren't i am taking it that way! i love you ! i miss you
endless love, valerie best friends for all eternity
Why does god break our hearts? i guess it is his was of showing us he only takes the best! i hear this over and over all the time and frankly i hate it, because i know it is true, i promise you michele that i am getting better at letting you go! i just miss you i talked to kevin the other day, i have to say it was weird talking to him again after all this time. i don't know. i went to the fair, the last time i was there was with you man. devin had a good time i don't think he really knew what to make of it! but he liked it. he is getting so big girl he is such a doll, he and mackenzie are gonna break some hearts! i'm tellin you it will be aweful. wish you were here to talk to me. or just to let me hear you talk for a while, just lay there for days and listen to that wispy voice of your, such a pretty voice though! to here you laugh or say my name when i have done something stupid, for you to run up behind me and reach around to give me a squeeze. i hated it but at the same time, now i miss the littlest things! why did this happen to you i will never know , but at least i know i wil be able to find y ou when i get to heaven , you had better be waiting for me by the gates!that time will come , but until then i will continue to raise my son for he is the light of my life, and i want to watch him do everything in life! i pray he finds a friend that will be as much of a best friend as you were to me!
i love you girl! i miss you michele...... best friends for all eternity
endlesslove, valerie
michele, well honey i finally got your mom and jana to this site, i think that they are pleased with it! i don't know about them , but i get chills everytime i come here! i miss you honey, life often seems out of balance with you gone, but i think that i am doing better, i came out to the cemetary saturday to talk to you , if someone saw me out there they would think i was crazy i sat there forever just rambling, i know you heard me! i was speaking from the heart! i love you so much, mackenzie came over for kyle's b-day party, i was so pleased that she only wanted me! me heart smiled and then i cried, thinking you were fixing to come in the door right behind her, grieving when you didn't, she came with kevin's new wife carrie, i often wonder what you think abou tall that anyways!i have no problem with it but it still seems very strange . well honey i got to go , just wanted you to know that i love you and miss you more than life itself! ENDLESS LOVE!!!!! B/F always
MICHELE,
IT HAS BEEN 2YEARS & 3MONTHS SINCE YOU LEFT. IT IS STILL SO PAINFUL. I KNOW IT WILL NEVER GO AWAY. I KNOW YOU ARE IN A BETTER PLACE. BUT IT'S THE MISSING YOU THAT IS JUST UNBEAR ABLE. SOMETIMES I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE ASK ME HOW MANY KIDS I HAVE. BECAUSE I KNOW I WILL HAVE TO TALK ABOUT IT. AND SOMETIMES I JUST DON'T WANT TO. MACKENZIE IS THE SPITTING IMAGE OF YOU. ALTHOUGH I HAVE HER 2 DAYS A WEEK. YOU KNOW THATS NOT WHAT I WANTED. BUT IDEAL WITH IT. WHEN SHE SEES PICTURES OF YOU SHE POINTS AND SAYS "THATS MY MOMMY". SOMETIMES IT MAKES ME SMILE. AND SOMETIMES IT MAKES ME WANT TO CRY. BUT I DON'T. I DON'T WANT HER TO THINK ITS SAD. THERE IS NEVER A DAY THAT YOU ARE NOT IN MY THOUGHTS. YOUR SISTER MISSES YOU TOO! I WISH YOU COULD BE HERE FOR HER RIGHT NOW SHE REALLY COULD USE HER BIG SISTER RIGHT NOW. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! MOM
THANK YOU FOR THIS MEMORIAL VALERIE!
i miss you so much , it is unreal...... i often think life is over, but i have a baby to look after, i love you very much michele, your daughter is getting so big! she will be 3 soon!I wish you were here, i am about to go through another change in life here with my new hjob and everything, please watch over us and keep us safe! endless love, valerie
Dear Valerie, What a beautiful tribute to Michelle, you hold a special piece of memories that only you can share with MacKenzie, I am so glad you plan to share her Mommy's life with her. Thank you for visiting Adam's site, Michelle can help watch over him until I get there. May God Bless You, Glinda-Canton, GA
I am so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you. Please visit my girls: http://community.webtv.net/bowlerlady/homepage God Bless You
MICHELE, JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I MISS YOU ANDI LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH! PLEASE LOOK AFTER US AS WE LEAVE TO GO OUT OF TOWN TONIGHT! ALSO LOOK AFTER MY PARENTS THROUGH THE WEEKEND!
I am sorry about your loss, my sister also died when she was very young, she died when she was 17 years old. I have an idea of what you are going through. take care, my sister memorial site:www.ourangels.com/kmfrank.htm
MICHELE, WELL I MADE IT THROUGH THE WEEKEND, YOUR ANNIVERSARY CAME AND WENT . I MADE IT, THOUGHT I WOULD BE CRAZY BY NOW TODAY. TEO YEARS AGO AT THIS TIME , IWANTED TO DIE AND NOW I HAVE A BEAUTIFUL HEALTHY SON , AND THINGS SEEM TO BE GOING OK FOR ME, I MISS YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD, AND CAN'T WAIT TO GET TO HEAVEN SO I CAN SEE YOU AGAIN. ..... YOUR LITTLE GIRL IS SO PRECIOUS, THIS WEEKEND . THERE IS A LARGE PICTURE OF YOU ON G-MOMMA AND G-DADDY'S KITCHEN WALL, AND MACKENZIE, POINTED ATT IT AND SAID "LOOK VALERIE , THAT'S MY MOMMY" THE TEARS JUST CAME..... I TRIED NOT TO CRY, I WISH YOU WERE HEAR TO SEE THAT GORGEUS SMILE OF HERS. T HE WAY SHE LIFT S UP HER SHIRTG AND SAYS"SEE MY BELLY BUTTON, GIVE IT A RASBERRY" AND WAITS FOR YOU TO BLOW ON HER STOMACH, SO SMART SO YOUNG AND SO UNAWARE OF WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO HER MOTHER, I NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS WOULD THINK WE WOULD BE WHERE WE ARE NOW! YOU IN HEAVEN AND ME FELLING LIKE I AM IN CONSTANT HELL. BUT I ALSO THINK IF YOU WOULD NOT HAVE DIED I WOULD NOTHAVE HAD MY SON. AND I FEEL GOD GAVE ME TO DEVIN TO HELP ME WITH THE PAIN. I LOVE YOU, WE ARE STILL BEST FRIENDS AND WILL ALWAYS BE. ENDLESS LOVE -
MICHELE, WELL HONEY, IN EXACTLY I WEEK FROM TODAY MY LIFE FELL ABOUT WHEN YOU WERE KILLED 2 YEARS AGO. I HATE THIS AND WISH YOU WERE HERE WITH ME I LOVE YOU GIRL AND LIFE IS MISERABLE WITH OUT YOU, MACKENZIE IS GETTING SO BIG AND SHE LOOKS JUST LIKE YOU ! AND HAS YOUR PERSONALITY, I AM TRYING TO KEEP UP WITH DEVIN, WHO IS 10 MONTHS OLD NOW..... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BEST FRIEND FOR ALL ETERNITY VALERIE
MICHELE, I MISS YOU GIRL, JEREMY GRADUATED LAST NIGHT, I AM SO PROUD OF HIM, I KNOW YOU ARE TOO. WHEN THEY SANG I WILL REMEMBER YOU, I ALMOST STARTED CRYING, AND I FELT YOU THERE WITH ME. I LOVE YOU GIRL, THANKS FOR BEING THERE. BEST FRIENDS 4 ETERNITY
MICHELE, TODAY MY SON TURNS 9 MONTHS OLD AND MY HEART ACHES FOR YOU TO BE HERE TO HOLD HIMA ND PLAY WITH HIM, YOU SHOULD SEE HIM AND MACKENZIE PLAY TOGETHER SHE ABSOLUTELY ADORES HIM. IT'S TOO CUTE. AND SHE LOOKS SO MUCH LIKE YOU. I WISH TO JUST SQUEEZE HER I FEEL CLOSER TO YOU WHEN I AM WITH HER. MICHELE, WHY ARE YOU GONE, WHAT HAPPENED? I KNOW THESE QUESTIONS WILL NEVER BE ANSWERED BUT I STILL CAN ASK THEM . I'LL NEVER GET A RESPONSE ....... PLEASE LOOK AFTER MY SON AS YOU HAVE IN THE PAST I KNOW YOU WATCH OVER US, YOUR MOM IS DOING WELL AND YOUR SISTER IS TURNING INTO SUCH A LITTLE WOMAN, SHE WILL BE 13 IN TWO DAYS, THAT IS AMAZING, SHE HAS GROWN UP SO MUCH IN THE PAST YEAR AND A HALF. I KNOW YOUKNOW ABOUT MY PROBLEMS, HELP ME,,,,,,, I NEED YOU AND I MISS YOU SO MUCH.
Valerie, this is very nice & I know you miss her bunches. Michelle just turned her life around & gave life to another a little replica. Remember, she is in a better place now.
Michele, Hey baby girl! I love you and think about you everyday! I miss you....
Always, Lari Kay Murray
Michelle,
Just wanted to say hi and let you know that you are missed greatly and thought about often..We love you girl!!!
Laura Buchanan
THIS IS SO SAD. SUCH A BEAUTIFUL LIFE TAKEN WAY TOO SOON. MY HEART BREAKS FOR THE LITTLE GIRL WHO WILL GROW UP WITHOUT HER MOMMY. MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND HELP YOU WITH YOUR GRIEF. WITH LOVE, NANCY